My High-school Love |Shawn Hunter x Reader|

8. Questions and a Panic attack

Shawn and Maya converse between themselves, trying to decide on where to go.

They ended up deciding on a little café downstairs not far from the apartment.

Maya walks ahead of us, leaving Shawn and I alone on the sidewalk.

I feel Shawns hand slip into mine, holding it tightly as his other hand  played with the hairties on my wrist, something he always used to do when I would attempt to comfort him when he was angry, or scared.

I knew it would be no use on trying to fight it, so I let him.

"Y/n," He whispers "Will you please let me explain?"

I look at him, expressionless. "No"

"Please... I know what I did was wrong, just let me explain, please?"

"Shawn..."

"Y/n, it was right after our first conversation about starting a family. You were pissed, I was pissed and I went out and got drunk and I honestly didn't even know I did what I did till I woke up...I know it was wrong, and stupid and immature but I love you so much I would never ever do that ever again, to anyone especially you." 

I stop walking, making him stop as he was still holding my hand "Shawn. You broke up with me "

"I know?" He says, furrowing his eyebrows

"Shawn, you ended things because I didn't want to get married, yet here you are, not so subtly hinting at starting our relationship back again." I yank my hand away, crossing my arms.

His mouth that was turned up slightly went down into a frown "Y/n, I'm sorry, I overreacted-"

"Overreacted?!" I exclaim "Shawn- you know- ugh"

I storm up beside Maya, walking beside her.

How could Shawn want to start things again after he stomped on my heart over something I couldn't help.

We reach the little café and take a booth.

I slide in against the wall and Maya slides in beside me, probably sensing that things were rough between us.

Shawn slid in across from us, sitting in the middle.

I prop my elbows on the table and lean against the wall.

"Ok, ask me anything." Shawn says

"Why did you and Y/n break up?"

"Oh... I- uh- I- I meant about me"

"Alright, why did you break up with Y/n?"

"It was dumb... And there wasn't even an actual reason aside from the fact I overreacted."

"Ok," Maya said "Why did you cheat on her?"

I was thankful she decided not to pry on the former questions, and honestly. I want to see what he would say about this.

I look at him, challenging him, daring him to tell her what happened.

He glances at me before taking a deep breath.

"I- we had gotten into a fight over starting a family... You see, this was a little less then a year before Riley... So I asked, suggested really... And Um, I kept pressing, asking why and she wouldn't tell me... I later found out it was because of a- anyways so we both got angry and I stormed out. I didn't know I had cheated on her till I woke up the next morning... And honestly if I could redo it... I wouldn't because I ended up with a daughter, but I would've done something different...Y/n I am really sorry" He looked at the table, obviously upset

I feel the beginning of anxiety attack coming and I pray to whoever will listen that it will go away.

Unfortunately It becomes hard to breath and I feel a wave of nausea roll over me, I turn to my side, facing Maya "Maya, let me out"