Silenced

Chapter 60

**Warning: This chapter contains sexual content.**

I watched Silas from my seat on the bed. He was grabbing clothes from a bag Alexander had given us. I wanted to ask about earlier and what he had meant when he said there were things 'we' could try if I really wanted a baby. I was spacing out a little when Silas finally turned around so I didn't have a chance to look away. I was busted.

"What's wrong?" Silas asked. He had mistaken my curiosity for concern.

'I was just thinking about earlier.' I admitted.

"What about?" He asked moving to set his clothes on the edge of the bed.

'Did you really mean you'd consider having a baby with me?' I asked.

"Is it really so surprising that I would?" He countered.

'Kind of. With everything that happened and now you know about the marks...' I signed.

"The marks make me angry because no one should be hurt like that but it doesn't change the way I feel about you." Silas said.

'But I can't be marked. I can't have babies. I can't have sex... I don't have anything to offer in a relationship. I don't even have a pack.' I signed.

Silas took a deep breath and sat down next to me on the bed.

"Maybe you can't be marked, that's something we'd have to discuss with Matthew if you decide you want to. It is dangerous to mark someone that doesn't have a wolf but it is not impossible. If you decided you want a baby we can look at options as I mentioned earlier... As for sex..." Silas paused and shook his head.

"I don't think it's as impossible as you think. It's definitely something we have to work up to. There are a lot of steps to take before we go there... And as for a pack you have one if you want it. The option to be a part of Willow pack will always be there. You have a lot more to offer than you think and it makes me sad that you'd believe otherwise." He said.

"I think what you have been trying to ask..." Silas shifted closer as he spoke. "...is if I'm still interested in you, romantically."

I felt my face heat up and I quickly looked away. He was to damn good at reading my mind.

"The answer is yes, Leannan. It's always going to be yes." He said. I looked back up at him in surprise. I hadn't expected him to say yes. I still couldn't imagine why someone like Silas was interested in someone like me.

"You're doing it again." Silas said pulling my attention back from my thoughts. I gave him a confused look. "Stop overthinking it. I really... really-" Silas sentence dropped off suddenly. When he didn't pick back up where he'd left off I shifted forward so that I was in his line of sight. It was the only way I could think to grab his attention.

'What's wrong?' I asked.

"I was going to say that I really like you but that's not true..." He sighed shaking his head. My breath caught painfully in my chest but I did my best to keep my face blank.

'That's ok.' I signed. I tried to move away quickly. I still couldn't breathe and my eyes burned. I wasn't going to be able to keep my face blank if this pain didn't stop.

"No. No..." Silas caught me and pulled me into his lap. "It's not true because I'm in love with you... Breathe baby..." He said holding both my hands against his chest.

~...what?~ I squeaked through the link. My shoulders shook with the force of my tears.

"Just breathe Ry." He whispered. His other hand smoothed down my hair slowly. I dropped my head over my hands and managed to inhale shakily despite my tears. I couldn't believe I was this hysterical because I'd thought Silas didn't like me.