Beautifully Flawed

"I'll try "

I know, I know. Street racing is illegal, blah blah blah.
There's just something about it that wouldn't let me stop. I don't race for the money or fame. I race for the adrenaline rush ,the feeling of pure ecstasy pumping through my veins.
There are only three people in the world that know of my reasons for street racing and basically all the crazy things I do. The first is my dad, my brother (actually step brother;its a very long story) Matheo and my childhood best friend (and one time crush)Dray. Ever since I started racing I just haven't been able to get myself to stop. Right now I'm leaving my room dressed in my denim black high waisted shorts and a plain white tube top with a black leather choker top thingy on top.... I really don't know what it is, I saw it, I liked it, I bought it. You can't blame me.
I'm sneaking down the stairs, towards the front door. I'm about to open the door and embrace the cool evening air when-

"you know I'd send you back to your room to change just so boys don't get handsy with you , but I know you'd break every reachable part of their body in multiple places if they touch you in the wrong way" I let out a sigh shaking my head slightly "why, why Dad ,why wouldn't you just let me act like a normal teenager for once! " "I'm sorry dear but I don't think you're a normal teenager..... You're unique baby " "ugh..... You can be so sappy at times" "but you love me nevertheless " "and what makes you think that" "that's it you're grounded" "really dad?........ You really think that will work?? " "I'm just kidding.... Are you going to the racing arena " and that's one of the reasons I love my dad beyond imagination. He's known about my racing, underground fighting and every other thing I do.... Sure he worries sometimes ,but he understands that I need to do these things to feel.... At peace it's a strange thing and quite difficult to understand but that's just how I am and I guess I'm okay with that . "yeah dad... I'm going to the arena so don't wait up and please stop worrying I can smell the worry all over you! " he lets out a sigh and a small smile. " I'm your dad Rhea... It's what I do"  "I know dad, and I love you .now I've got to go "

In about half an hour I arrive at the arena on my power bike and I'm greeted by Ash and Justin. We're not so close but we are friends nevertheless. Ash is a pretty muscular guy. He's got hazel brown eyes,chiseled jaw, auburn hair and a pretty good tan. I know, he's basically every girls dream boyfriend .however I can't bring myself to see him as anything more than a friend.
On the other hand Justin is pretty cute, you'd never guess he's involved in street racing .he's not muscular, but God is he tall ,pink lips, golden brown hair, broad shoulders and blue eyes. Ash  will be twenty in about a month and Justin just turned nineteen. "Rhea! How have you been?" Justin asks while placing a light kiss on my cheek. "I've been good, but it seems the two of you didn't miss me at all"   "how can I?.... You've been haunting my dreams alot lately"  "you mean you've been fantasizing about me, hunh? "  "oh please... Don't flatter yourself "  a wolf whistle from my left catches my attention and I turn to Ash  " why do you always have to be so sexy "  "says the guy who has every girl drooling over him"  "so you drool over me? "   "oh please, I drool over cupcakes, ice-cream... Anything sweet. And I'm happy to tell you that you aren't there yet"  "Yup, she's still as mean as ever. So are you ready for today's race? "  "when am I not ready for a race? "  "well you're going to be racing Todd, Mike and your prince, Axel. "  "are you kidding me!? Don't you have anyone challenging for me today? "   "sssh.... I know you're good ,hell you might even be the best we have here but Axel is a cheat always has been always will be. So don't get too cocky" I have to admit Ash is right. Axel is nothing but a big baby, he's the definition of immature. I mean ,to say he is a spoilt over pampered rich brat is an understatement. He cheats during every single race and still hardly ever manages to win.   "you're right, now let's go get my car "   "I'm always right cupcake"  after winning so many races  I used a bit of  my money to buy myself a car, a zenvo st1 to be precise. It's really expensive but not as expensive as some of the cars people race with around here. I mean, sure I like expensive stuff but I do spend wisely.  I walk up to my car, it's a  dull gray sports car.   "thanks alot Ash I see you been taking care of Tatiana " I say while running my fingers along the side of my baby "Do you know how creepy it is when you do that? "   "Uhhhh... Do what? "   "name your car! I mean... It's a bloody sports car not a pet"  "hey! Watch your mouth and don't you talk about Tatiana like that, sure she may be a car but she's got feelings alright"   "wow, you really have lost it " Justin says  " Hey! gather round y'all, let's get this race started aiit "  Julian calls out.... He's the organizer of all the races held at this arena. He's quite tall, has tattoos crawling up the sides of his neck and has sinful dark eyes ,he has broad shoulders and a very confident stance.  However there's always something about his face... I mean he always has this excited smirk and mischievous glint in his eyes ,yet if you get close enough you can see the promise of  pain in his eyes. He's in his mid thirties and has owned this arena for as long as I've been in California  and people call him the cobra. We all gather round him and wait for the rules  " racing today we've got, Axel, Todd, Mike and of course silver"  I used silver as my name here because I didnt really think it was safe to go by my real name here, it is filled with shady people and it isn't exactly legal, plus let's face it... It sounds cool.
"The bets have been placed, you know the rules, first driver to cross the finish line, WITH HIS car, wins.   Now let the races begin! " I jog to my car and  get ready for the race a lady known as fox stands in front of the starting point with a red and white flag "on your mark!, Get set!, RACE!! "  and with that I speed off with Axel right behind me ,taking a quick glance behind me I see Todd and Mike battling for the winning spot a few feet behind Axel. I'm still speeding, just taking my time and loving the way Tatiana glides smoothly on the road. When I look out of my window I see Axel handing me a hard glare which couldn't even bother me ,I send him a wink in return and floor the gas.  Heading for a turn. At the last minute i turn sharply still stepping on the gas with all my might,swerving to the left side of the street.
Axel immediately takes that as a chance to speed up and tries to push his car to go a little  bit faster. We're  still a few feet away from the finish line and I get a brilliant idea. I step on the accelerator and Tatiana lurches forward, picking up speed, basically eating the road like a starved beast.The moment I see there's a good distance between Axel and I, I start to swerve from left to right to stop him from overtaking.  He gets frustrated quickly and remains in the middle lane probably trying to come up with a plan and I take that as my chance. I speed up even more, begging Tatiana to go faster for mummy. I swerve into the middle lane  a few feet away from Axel, about now I can see the finish line in the distance. I speed up a Bit more, desperate to put as much space between us as possible, after the count of five , I swerve sharply to left and floor the brake simultaneously. The cars spins sideways  ,with the front of the car facing the left. My car comes to a screeching halt, almost as reflex Axel swerves off the road to avoid the crash and barely a second later I release the brake stepping on the gas and turning back to my position  ,I take a chance and use my boost gas up and just as Axel manages to get back on the road after much struggle, I cross the finish line as the winner. The majority of the crowd seem happy which means most of them bet on me, which means I also get more money.  I turn and park a few feet away from the little area reserved for drinks and beer. It's basically a bar and right now I'm desperate for a drink. I order a vodka and whiskey mix. I'm about to take a sip of my drink when I hear what sounds like a dying cat scream my name "Rhea!!!!"  I squint my eyes a little and recognize my small group of friends and wave them over.  Jeff gets to me first giving me a friendly kiss on the cheek and a hug. After which I hug Ace, Shawn and Miranda. Jake just stays on the opposite side of the bar facing me. Oh and don't forget he gives me a very generous nod.  I actually find it surprising that his actions don't really piss me off anymore.   "Hey guys , I can't believe you actually made it! "    "and why is that so hard to believe, baby"  Ace asks  "well I didn't really expect you to come, plus you guys seemed pretty uncomfortable when I invited you"  "you can't exactly blame us, the closest I've been to a street racing arena is while watching videos on YouTube " Shawn says and I really can't help laughing at that.  "oh and speaking of videos, do you know anybody here by the name silver,  rumors say she's the best at this arena and possibly the whole of california"  can this dude really be so oblivious?. I shake my head slightly and hand him a knowing smirk. A look of confusion sets on his face before switching to understanding and then confusion again "a-are you......... Are you silver? "  
"no shit Sherlock "  "oh my gosh! Are you serious!!?"  "calm the fuck down, it's not a big deal "  "like hell, it isn't! "   "just chill okay?  So what drinks would you like"  "what have you got? "   Miranda asks looking really scared and cautious " first of all Mira I will like to ask you to relax, just stop worrying and secondly I think you should try the vodka and whis-"  I couldn't finish my sentence because I was rudely interrupted by a red and fuming Axel  "what the hell was that!?"  he yells standing right in front of me clearly not knowing the meaning of personal space. Getting really tired of his tantrums I let out a sigh and lean on the wall "what do you mean Axel? " I say with a bored tone "I'm talking about the dumb little stunt you pulled out there!"  "oh, you mean the 'dumb little stunt' that I used to kick your ass a few minutes ago? "  that makes him flare up even more  "you're nothing but a low class worthless piece of shit,you know that!? "  from the corner of my eye I see Jake go stiff, his whole body is rigid and tense  "oh please, you are nothing but a childish immature good for nothing idiot, who can't take the fact that he got beat by a girl. So you can just take your stupid class and your dumb daddy's money and go to hell! " by now we've attracted a crowd and I can notice Ash giving me a knowing look, I know exactly what is going on here. I'm about to walk away when Axel grabs my neck and slams me against the wall, I reach out for his arm ready to hold him in an arm lock when he's immediately pulled away from me .i watch amazed as Jake repeatedly tries to shove his fist up Axel's nose, breaking his already crooked nose.  You might expect me to run up to the fight and separate them and reprimand Jake for lashing out like that. But by now you should know I did the exact opposite. All I did was lean against the wall with an amused grin,while quietly sipping on my drink "oh my God.... Rhea aren't you going to do something!? "Mira asks, trying to encourage me to put an end to the fight  "like what? "   "Uhhhh... Stop the fight?" she says in a duh tone. I let a moment pass to weigh my options, I could either leave them and watch Jake beat the crap out of Axel. Or I could stop the fight and end the fun. "nah ,just let them be"  "for the love of God" Jeff mutters before walking up to Jake and pulling him off . Jake on the other hand keeps trying to get to Axel, so Ace and Jake hold him back while he tries to relax.i just stare at him, you might be thinking he did It for me because he likes me or some romantic shit like that. But I think he did it for himself I understand how he feels and where he is coming from because I've been there so many times it's dangerous.  I understand that him seeing and listening to Axel lash out like that, triggered something...... A memory maybe?  I can't really say what but I let him beat Axel up because I knew he needed to let out the anger and get that frustration off his chest.  He looks at me still trying to catch his breath, and I study him.... I actually take time to study him and look into his eyes trying to tell him something   relax, calm down. You're in control  .  It may seem absurd or impossible to talk to someone by just staring at them, but it's more than just staring, it's looking  . When you look into the person you see their emotions and thoughts and then you try  to feel what you want to tell them. And they see it and know exactly what you mean. 'They say the eyes are the windows to our souls ' It's complicated and sounds sappy, I know, but it works.  Still looking at each other I hand him a small smile as he takes deep breaths and walk towards Ash "you do know this is a trap right "  "oh please Ash, stop underestimating me"  "alright, but be careful"  "I'll try"  I turn around and face Axel who's struggling to stay on his feet  " I want a rematch" he says with gritted teeth. I mean this dude can barely beat me while he's strong and in one piece, but he thinks he can beat me while he can barely stand straight? "okay" he looks slightly stunned that I gave in so easily " but I'm racing with my power bike " he looks irritated and happy at the same time. Anyone who can ride a power bike like a true expert has a chance at winning but at the same time  Loosing because these sport cars have boost tanks and other racing extras added to their features while the power bike is just a power bike. "I race with the bike or I don't race at all"  I say with confidence. Anyone that really knows Axel will know that he probably already messed with my car just so he can win, but he's yet to know I'm always a step ahead  he nods his head begrudgingly  "alright "  "Justin! " I call out " yeah babe? "  "could you please get Rosalita? "  "Uhhhh who's that.?" he says confused  " my power bike, idiot"  he let's out a slightly annoyed sigh "alright... "   ten minutes later... Bets have been placed and Axel and I are at the starting point .I've put on my helmet and a leather jacket ,so ready to kick his ass again.  I've never actually raced with my power bike before so this should be fun.  Fox is back with her flags "on your mark!, get set!  ,ra-" and I'm already gone speeding like I'm being chased by some hell hound .i hear people cheering but I remain focused
Still speeding until my bike lurches forward "what the hell!? " and I skid off to the side of the road.