Beautifully Flawed

"sure"

It took me three hours .......three freaking hours to find my way home. I really don't know what I was thinking when i just walked off like that, and maybe i wasn't even thinking but at least now I'm home. The moment i step into my house i chuck my bag into the corner and throw myself onto the couch. My head starts getting misty and I'm about to welcome the much needed calmness of sleep when the bass of my ringtone starts to play. "For the love of God!!" I let out a frustrated groan and begrudgingly answer the phone "who the fuck is this and what the hell do you want" some might say that thats a rather rude way to pick a call,but right now, to say i don't  give a shit is an understatement. "Whoa......Rhea is something wrong?"  Recognizing the voice instantly i check the caller ID. Jake
"Umm....no...I'm alright. Just not in the mood"
"Oh....did something happen?"
Questions. Questions. I hate questions.
"Look Jake, why did you call?"
" uhh....Ace said to remind you that we're meeting up at his place later today and he wants to know if you're still up for it"
"Oh....sure, i guess i am"
"Okay....good, i guess I'll come pick you up?"
"Sure".
And now i have to go get ready for a get together I'm not even interested in. Don't get me wrong i love Ace and the guys their really cool and all but right now I'm not exactly in the right state of mind to be around anyone.....but i can't have them suspecting sonething is wrong......i can't tell them just yet. After a long shower,i change into one of my baggy sweatpants and a sweater ..i know, very fashionable.  With the hope of getting a few minutes of rest before th get together, i once again flop onto the couch ,as i take in a deep breath and try to relax....life decides to remind me that its a bitch and jake honks his horn. Sighing at my rotten luck  i grab my phone and my keys and walk out of the house.
"Hey"  he says as i try to buckle the seatbelt "hi" i say ,offering him a fake smile.

About two minutes into the ride he decided it was the PERFECT time to start with the stupid questions .
" umm..so how are you feeling"
"Fine"
"Are you comfortable?"
"Yes"
"Are you cold....i mean its quite hot ,and you're wearing sweatpants and a sweater"
I just reply by shrugging my shoulders.
"Are you mad about something...you seem distant."

"Don't you ever get tired of asking so many fucking questions!? You make me want to pull my hair out , now shut the fuck up and drive you idiot!" I say it calmly without looking at him but my tone is quite harsh.
  I immediately regret my reaction when i see the look on his face. I mean, he was just playing the role of a concerned friend and I'm being a total bitch about it. Also, he's basically the only one that has really noticed that I've been off lately   ...and i appreciate it ,but questioning  me is never the answer ,it just puts me under pressure and frustrates me.

"Look I'm sorry Jake ,I'm just going through some shit now and i really do hate questions" he lets out a light chuckle and glances my  way "I'm sorry, I'm just worried ,plus after you helped chloe and i the other day i sort of feel like i can trust you, even after our fights. But if you ever need to talk  I'm right here " i offer him a small smile and look out the window.

A few minutes later,we arrive at Ace's house .
"Hey" is all i say to announce my presence.  "Oh my God Rhea I've missed you"
"Oh shut the hell up Jeff ,you just saw her a couple of hours ago"

"Exactly ! That's too much time away from the love of my life" Jeff responds dreamily.
I let out a light chuckle, because i know he's only joking. "I missed you too Jeffery" .

"Hey!" Ace comes lumbering into the living room at top speed,and then he picks me up in a bear hug. "Oh my Jesus! Ace put me down ,before i pluck out your eyeballs and shove them up your ass!"  "Sheesh, why do you always have to be so brutal "he says while setting me down gently.
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About an hour later ,we are all seated in Ace's movie room with drinks,candy and bowls of buttery delicious popcorn,but of course ......no strawberry ice cream. "But seriously Ace, how the hell can you live with yourself knowing fully well that you don't have  strawberry ice cream!?" "I'm sorry okay, its just that basically everyone in my family loves chocolate ice cream ,so we don't need to buy any other flavours!"
"Oh.....so you don't see me as a part of your family?" Is say with a teasing pout "of course i do Rhea...you're the love of my life remember?"  "Of course i remember ...how can i forget a hunk like you?" I say with a chuckle  "oh for the love of God ,can we just watch the movie without you two flirting!" Umm.....what exactly crawled up jakes ass and died in it ?  

" its called harmless flirting so get over it ,and you don't get to tell me what to do!"  
  "Oh yeah ,i forgot you're bad ass Rhea ,no one tells her what to do because she will kick their ass. I mean a couple of minutes ago you were all mad and grumpy talking about how you have shit going on in your life ,not to mention i heard you walked out of class and of school....during school hours. And then you come here all flirty acting like you don't give a shit!"
Oh.....i can't believe this ,i really can't  ."you really think you can call me out! Really Jake you are none to talk . And i definitely am stupid for thinking you're actually a good understanding friend. I mean a few months ago the BLOODY MAFIA crashed our party and almost killed us and then the same MAFIA were following you at the mall a few weeks ago and you expect me to not think there is a story behind all this!? For Pete's sake I'm not dumb ! And i know for a fact the party and you being followed at the mall is connected, so if you can't tell us why you're being followed ,I'd advice you not to ask me questions"  with that i walk out of the movie room and roam about mindlessly till I'm in the kitchen. Moments later Mira and jeff walk in and take a seat .   "I always knew you had alot going on in your life"   they both say at the same time with matching smirks on their faces
"Did you guys just plan to say that at the same time?"    "Maybe" they say once again. I let out a breathy laugh and look down while wringing my hands, trying to get rid of all my nerves.
 
"I know ,he has no right to say all those things to you. But why don't you just look at it from this point. I think Jake is just mad,or hurt because ,it seems he's desperate for you to trust him. And its quite funny....because i don't think he knows it yet. Look Rhea,i wasn't joking when i said i literally love you . And trust me when i say i know you've been through a ton of shit ,although it stings to know you don't exactly trust us to tell us these things ;but i understand more than anyone ,because letting someone in is one of the hardest things you could ever do....but sometimes sharing your problems is the only way to get over them. Listen Rhea ,i will wait for you to trust me and i will wait for you to be ready to let someone in  ,i won't rush you ,EVER. But for your own good Rhea ,this problem is hurting you and i can literally tell from your appearance, open up to someone....please! It doesn't even have to be me or Mira but just do...i want what's best for you cause you've always been there for Mira and i. It would kill me to know i couldn't even help you after all you did for us . Telling jokes and making you laugh all the time is all i can do for now . Take care of yourself Rhea ...i mean for the love of fudge brownies you're a freaking badass ...literally the strongest ,toughest kickass lady I've ever met .....you can handle whatever is going on ...okay?" 
Jeff says with a  soft voice and at this point all i can do is nod ,because i realize I'm almost choking on tears...i refuse to cry.   "Thanks guys ..it really means alot to know you have my back"   with that i get up and leave.....i walk all the way to my house ,which is about twenty minutes away. I definitely need ice cream.