Lost in your grip

Chapter 26 | Guilt

Marlon's POV
She's awake. That's all that matters. She's right...I could have killed her...she's my sister. I need to control my anger. I need to fix myself. I guess the loss of Brody is killing me more than I thought. I get bullied at school now because Louis opened his big mouth about what I did to Clementine. I didn't mean it. If I did I would have kept punching her but I stopped. She forgave me...that's just the type of person she is. She's a good person and I promise you Clementine, I'll get better but I need your help. I texted Clem.

M-Hey Clem...um how are you feeling?

C-Well I can't find the perfect position to sleep cuz you know, broken ribs.

M-I'm so sorry...

C-Relax man, I'm just fucking with you

M-Oh right..um wait why are you up?

C-Well for one thing, my ribs, and second, I uh got a lot on my mind. Everyone caught me up on the past two weeks so it's a hell of a lot to process

M-Oh yeah I guess that makes sense

C-So what's up?

M-I need your help getting Brody back...

C-Why? Not to sound all mad or anything. Just curious.

M-I just don't feel the same without her and she helps me control my anger.

C-Marlon you need to control your anger on your own
M-I know and I will she just teaches me the right things

C-Alright then, wanna hang out at the beach?

M-Sure..

C-Alright we are gonna have a brother sister day. I'll be at your house at 10 tomorrow morning.

M-Okay, I'll see you then.

I don't understand why she still wants me in her life...

Next morning: At the beach
"Okay so I brought snacks, it's in my trunk." She said. I nodded and carried the bag full of food. "God damn, you pack for a whole town?" I asked with sarcasm. She giggled. "C'mon Marlon, man up." She said. I chuckled and we walked to the beach. "This should be a good spot." She said. I put down the bags and helped her set up the beach blanket. "You know I expected Louis to show up, he doesn't trust me anymore." I said. She looked at me with a sad face. "We got in a fight last night." She muttered. "Oh..well what was it about?" I asked as we sat on the blanket. "I feel like he doesn't love me anymore Marlon...I feel like he only wants me for my body.." she mumbled as she started to cry. "What makes you think that?" I asked. "Well ever since I woke up, he's been all over me. It's like dude let me breathe. I've been out for two weeks." She said as she wiped her face. I hugged her. "Clem, there's one thing that you should know about Louis, out of all the years I've known him, I've never seen him love anyone like he loves you and that's a fact. That man is in love with you." I said. She scoffed with a smile. "Brody and I had the same fight but...I thought she was cheating on me. She thought I cheated on her with Sophie..." I said. She looked up at me. "Seriously? Out of everyone she picks Sophie?" She asked. "Yeah I know right." I chuckled. "Did you?" She asked. "Come on Clem, you know me." I said. "Yeah, I do know you. Cocky son of a bitch." She smiled. We both started laughing. After laughing for a few seconds, we made eye contact. I don't know what it is but she looked perfect in the sun. Wait what? I started to lean in. What am I doing?! She's my bestfriend's girlfriend. Stop! Before I could do anything our lips connected. Louis is gonna kill me...but she's not pulling away...I should. We pulled away. Our faces were pink. "I'm so sorry.." I said. "I...I...I'm so fucked..." She said. "No you aren't, I am. I can't believe I just did that. If he asks or anything, just say I forced myself on you." I said. "What? No I can't blame you. He already hates you as it is. I'm trying to fix you guys." She said. "Clementine, I owe you and let's be honest, I did force myself on you, you just didn't pull away." I said. "Please just blame me." I said. "Besides, you can't fix something if the other person doesn't want to cooperate." I sighed. "I guess you're right on that.." She sighed. "Okay so...uh Brody..." She added. "Just be you and talk to her. That's how you win a girls heart." She said. I nodded with a smile. She got up and grabbed my hand. "C'mon Marlon, we got all day." She said as she dragged me to the water. All I could look at was the scar on her chest. I did that to her. It wasn't as big as I thought it was. It's a scar under her armpit. Her bikini top covers most of it, but not completely. I'm glad she's okay and happy again. We spent all day at the beach. She took me back to her house. We walked in. "You're so stupid Marlon." She laughs. "I totally didn't mean for that to happen but it did." I laughed. Louis walked up. "He didn't hurt you?" He asked Clem while keeping eye contact with me. "No, we actually had a great time." She said as she nudged me. "Alright well my house is down the street so see you at school?" I asked. She nodded. She walked off. "I still don't trust you white boy." He snarled. "You don't have to." I said. "Just go home Marlon." He said. I left her house and started walking home.

I can't believe I kissed her. What was I thinking? I'm totally to blame for this. She didn't pull away cuz I held her face. If Louis finds out he'll beat my ass..again. I got to just lay low. I should text Brody when I get home.

Clementine's POV
He kissed me....I felt his pain. He was like me when Louis and I broke up. I feel bad. Hopefully Brody isn't as stubborn as I am. I have to tell Louis....but how...

"Hey uh you good?" He asked. "What? Oh yeah I'm fine." I said. "I'm glad you had fun." He said. "Marlon kissed me..." I mumbled. His eyes widen. His expression went from normal to angry. He got up and started heading for the front door. I followed him. "Louis please calm down." I said as I stopped him. "No! First he hurts you and now he kisses you when he knows that I'm with you?! Nah I'm tired of playing these games with him." He said. "Louis, stop. He was like me when we broke up and you know that. The kiss ment nothing anyways." I said. He sighed and looked at me. "Clementine I don't want to lose you. I love you too much to let you go." He said. I placed my hand on his face. "Louis, you think too much. I love you and only you. I want you and only you. You are mine and I'm yours. If you think someone is gonna steal my heart, it's basically impossible because you already stole it Lou." I said. He smiled. "If he kisses you again...He's done for but imma let it slide." He said. "Yeah totally." I said. We sat on the couch and Rosie jumped in my lap. "Hey honey." I said. She licked my hand. "Who's a good girl?" I smiled. She barked. "That's right, you are." I said as I scratched the back of her ear. "Aww." Louis said with a smile. He kissed my cheek and we watched Bad Boys on Netflix. "Look, I'm sorry about last night and being protective." He said. "Don't worry about it okay." I said.

Marlon's POV
I called Brody but she didn't answer. I called her again. She didn't answer. "Fuck.." I mumbled. There was a knock on my door. I walked over. I opened the door expecting Louis to be there, ready to hit me, but it was Brody. "Hey, I would have answered your calls but I thought I should see you in person so uh...can we talk?" She asked. I let her in. I still live with my parents. I'm not rich like Louis. We went upstairs. "Hey Brody." Mom said. "Oh Hey Carol." She said. We went into my room. "So what do you wanna talk about?" I asked. "I know you hurt Clementine but she talked to me earlier and um....she said that we should get back together." She said. I rubbed the back of my neck. "Look Brody...I love you more than my life. I have been a mess since we split. I want to spend my life with you.." I said. She teared up. "She told me you kissed her..." I froze. "You know you're lucky she stopped Louis." She chuckled. "I won't do it again, I don't know why I did it." I said. "I don't even have feelings for her. She's my sister." I added. "Stop talking you dummy, you did it because you felt guilty Marlon. You hurt her and you felt guilty so you kissed her." She said. I looked down. She lifted my head. She kissed me. "Promise me...promise me that you won't hurt her again, that you won't kiss her again..." She said. "I promise.." She kissed me again. "Im serious Marlon." She said. "I am too." I said. "I love you Marlon..don't forget that okay. I'll see you tomorrow." She said. "I love you too...we good?" I asked. She stopped and turned around. "Yeah, we good." She said. I smiled. She left my room and she went home.

Well Marlon, don't fuck up again.

(Gave y'all a little of what Marlon is thinking and going through. Till next time. ~Cameron)