Help me//Reddie

~S E V E N T E E N~

Eddie's POV

I didn't sleep all last night.
Yes Richie beside me was comforting but I was to anxious to sleep. Lately my mother has changed.

She's been going to church more often. The one where the priest speaks about how homosexual is a sin.

A few nights ago at dinner my mother brought up a girl who's mother she met at church.

[a few nights ago]

"Her names Myra." My mother said as she sets my plate in front of me.

"Myra?" I say as I pick up my fork and pick at my mashed potatoes.

"Yes, she's very nice and is really involved with the church. She volunteers there with the children."

      "Really huh?" I say, obviously uninterested as I start to eat.

       "I told her about you and she wants to meet you. You should come to church on Sunday."

       "Um, I'll have to see is Beverly or Richie wanna hang out. I'll see if I can or not ok momma?" I fake smile.

     "That tozier boy huh? Tell me about him." She says. She has almost a disappointment tone to her voice.

       "He's actually pretty smart, has most A's on his work he just pretends like he doesn't care ya know, but boys are like that." I go on about everything that's good about Richie. I begin to gush about him, not realizing how it sounds like I'm obsessed over him.

         "You seem to like him huh? Well don't get too caught up with him you need to get yourself a girlfriend some how and only hanging out with him won't help. You need to talk to new people." She says as she begins to eat.

         "M-momma....." I say. Has she forgotten some how?! How I don't want a girlfriend, I want a boyfriend.

        "Yes Eddie bear." She smiles.

        Momma I'm gay, I'm about to say. She already knows this but for some reason she wants to ignore it. She wants to pretend like I'm not what I am....

       "Um...never mind." I say and continue to eat.

[present]

       Richie's still snoring softly. It's 7:30 and we were out pretty late last night so I don't expect him to be up.

       I locked the door in the middle of the night so my mother wouldn't walk in and I still haven't unlocked it.

      I sit up and look at my phone

Unknown: Hey Eddie, it's Myra. Your mother gave me your number I agree with her that it would be a good idea if we hang out

        "Fuck..." I mumble and turn off my phone.

         "What's wrong Eds?"

         I jump a little but than relax, "Oh morning rich....how's your eye." Eddie smiles softly.

          "Yeah it's fine, are you ok?" Richie sits up.

          "Yeah I just have a bit of a....head ache." I rub the side of my head with my two fingers.

          "Were you drinking last night? I know Bev brought some alcohol." Richie asks, sounding a little concerned.

         "No no, just probably because I'm dehydrated." I smile.