Would've given you the moon

Chapter 23

You may love me, but you were
Never in love with me and that makes
All the difference in the world.

Weeks past and I've been trying to get myself together. Ever since I broke down in tears, My emotions have been a huge emotional roller coaster. I break down every now and then. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep.

I was so mentally and emotionally fucked up. I became depressed and It was hard to get back on my own two feet again. Especially when I feel like I'm alone. I have the guys but sometimes, even when you have so many people around you who loves you, you feel alone.

I stopped eating as much and I sleep all day. After coming home from work of course. I play music and read all day or whenever I can. It helps me escape from the world for a while.

These past few weeks have been very hard and stressful for me. I want to stop crying. I want to stop the pain but it's hard when everything reminds of you of the person you though you couldn't live without. He's on my mind all the time, 24/7. Every little thing reminds me of him. I hate it.

It's like I can't get away from him no matter how far away I go. It doesn't matter that I walked away from him and finally let him go. He will always be on my mind.

I hate myself for thinking about him. I hate myself for loving him so much. No..I'm disappointed in myself, For everything.

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I have to get grocery so that means I have to get out of the house. Something I haven't done in a while.

I drove to the grocery store and grabbed a cart.

As I was walking down the cereal isle, I saw Jungkook grabbing some cereal to put in his cart. I quickly pulled my cart back and tried to avoid him.

"Y/n?" He calls my name.

I don't answer and keep walking, acting as if it wasn't me.

I didn't rush, that would be too obvious. So I pushed my cart normally and walked off, hoping he wouldn't follow me.

Thankfully, he didn't. I'll just get some cereal later.

I was looking at the meat section, deciding if I wanted pork belly or not.

"Let's just get it" I say to myself, putting two packs of pork belly in my cart. I saw Jungkook coming towards the meat section and quickly turned my cart around but realized I was at a dead end.

"Are you serious?" I say to myself and sigh.

I pushed my cart but looked the opposite way of where Jungkook was coming from.

"I was right, hey y/n. It's been a while" jungkook stands infront of my cart.

I clear my throat, looking up at him.

God do I miss him. So much.

"Yeah..excuse me, I have to go pay and get home" I push my cart around him and walk to the cash register.

"I can get cereal next time.." I quietly say to myself as I pay.

While i'm Putting my grocery bags inside my car, Jungkook is waiting for me. He was leaning on my car door on the drivers side.

"Let's talk" he says, his arms crossed on his chest.

"About what?"

"I haven't spoken or seen you in a while. I just wanna see how you're doing"