Would've given you the moon

Chapter 25

I don't want you back
But I wish you hadn't
Let me go.

Jungkooks POV

Jimin came into my room again and sat down on my bed.

The members have been bothering me for weeks now and being annoying.

It was going on for about 4 weeks until recently, they stopped.

I was left alone for 2 weeks, thank god.

Until today of course.

"What do you want hyung?" I ask Jimin, concentrating on my phone still.

We somehow got into a deep conversation. I haven't had one in a while. I don't remember getting this deep into the conversation.

"Hyung, she's a different person now. I was way too much of an asshole to her to see what an amazing person she was. Her heart was pure gold, an angel and she cared so, so much about me, when she shouldn't have for how bad I treated her. I never understood why she always forgave me, took me back or cared for me. I never treated her the way she really deserves to be treated. "Why?" You ask?...I guess...her love scared me." I shifted around on my bed to get comfortable.

"Her Love was so..." I couldn't find the words.

"Intense?" Jimin asks, finding the word for me.

"Yes, intense. With her..I honestly and genuinely think I could've been happy. I almost forgot how beautiful her smile was. I must've forgot that she stopped smiling as time went on. Crying was all I ever saw from her or heard from people. It really was such a shame though..she wasted so much tears over..someone like me.." I lightly chuckle at the last words that came out of my mouth.

"I don't deserve her and I never did"

Jimin scoffs, "you're damn right about that shithead"

I throw a pillow at him, it hits him in the face.

"Yah!" He yells.

"I know okay!" I cross my arms across my chest.

"Well..she's doing okay now. Better, even" Jimin tells me, running his hands through his hair again.

"That's good..."

"Did you even ever care about her?" He suddenly asks me.

I was silent for a moment.

"Yeah, I did. But not enough. I should've cared for her more but I didn't. I cared about her to a certain point. It just felt like...she was just someone I was talking to. Someone that I thought was cute and we'd end soon. I didn't expect us to last for 6 months, even if it was on and off"

"She's the longest person you've ever been with a while though" Jimin adds on.

I nod, "yeah, she was..she stayed for so long, handling all the bullshit I was putting her through"

"Mhm, you done fucked up kook. You let a good one go man.."

I bite my bottom lip, "yeah, I really did"