Would've given you the moon

Chapter 27

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There is no such thing
As "loving a person too much" but
There is something as loving
Yourself too little.

Interview with Y/n

I wouldn't say I was too clingy or nosy or controlling. I was the opposite actually. I didn't want to come off as being clingy so I let a lot of things slide and let him be. No matter how much I missed him or how much I was hurt, I didn't once beg him for anything.
I could only do so little because we weren't together officially.

What kind or type of girlfriend would I be?

Um...chill. I'm super chill *chuckles* probably way more than I should be. I let things off the hook too easily.

Do I fall too hard?

Yes, I definitely do..I probably shouldn't though. I'm working on it.

Do I care about Jungkook?

Hmm...No, I don't care about him anymore. Maybe deep, deep down somewhere I still do.

Nah, I don't. I just checked and I don't care about him.

Did I ever care for him?

Yeah, totally. I cared about him more than I cared about myself *laughs* I cared about everything he did. His work, his health, everything.

Did I ever love Jungkook?

Yes, yes I did. Very much.

Do i love Jungkook?

*silence*

Um...no. No...I don't love him anymore. I think I'll always have a soft spot for him deep down, but I don't love him anymore.

Was I in love with Jungkook?

*nervously chuckles and bites bottom lip*

Yeah...yeah I was. So, so in love. It's crazy actually...I didn't know I could be in love with someone that much. I was so in love with him that I couldn't see what he was doing to me. I couldn't see how badly he was treating me.

Love makes you blind.

Have I ever cried because of him?

Yeah, I cried a bunch of times. Wayyy more than I should've been crying. Um...but the thing was, was that I didn't know why I was crying. Funny right?

How did I not know why I was crying?...

Well...when you start lying to yourself. When you start making excuses for the way they hurt you because you don't want to admit it. You don't want to be honest with yourself..because you're not ready.

Because once you finally admit it to yourself, that's when things become real. That's when you realize that they're hurting you and that you're going to have to let go.

But the thing is..you don't want to let go. You've become so attached to them that you're scared to let go.

How was I in the whole relationship?