A fear, something that's probably extremely common, that everyone has deep down and you probably don't realize this unless you have a near death experience, something not everyone will experience, and you're likely if you don't. By the time you're twenty at least half the people your age have been put in a situation they probably though was their last. That's not actually true, it might be but I have no evidence behind that, and I never said I did but I'm the narrator so you think you can trust me, but can you? The fear in focus is dying alone, this doesn't seem like it would be a problem let alone a fear by just hearing it but I need you to think about it. If you take the time to actually think about all the horrible ways you could die, a very pessimistic way of thinking I know, you would want somebody there with you. For some people their near death experience might have been a terrible car accident, put yourself in that situation, your vehicle is trashed, holding on by scraps, you might not be hurting, or you could be bleeding, there can be glass in your body, there might be underlying issues you'll discover later, you might be straight faced and terrified or crying and hysterical, but you're not dead. You're not dead, you might wish you were, but there's a friend there with you and they're not dead either, you survived, but it doesn't feel like it. Now you wake up to the realization of two new fears, you now fear getting in a vehicle but you do it eventually, a little bump or pothole might make you feel like you're reliving it all over again, but you're fine and that will be hard to realize because now you also live with the fear of dying alone, what if you had died that day, you would have been there with someone but what if you died that day, with nobody. For others they may have survived a shooting or a robbery, they might have been hostages, just leverage to negotiate with the police, you could have been on a walk, alone, walking home, someone starts shooting, it doesn't matter where you live, how nice you think your neighborhood is because right now someone has a gun and all you've heard was the initial shot, you don't know where it is and who it hit, but it's too close, should you run or walk normally, which would attract more attention? No one knows the answer to this, if you were to start running you could get away quicker and be safe, but wouldn't that just make you more of a target, this person is running, they've seen something they shouldn't have, they need to be stopped. Try walking normally, you'll be in the same situation for longer, you could still get shot, you are still going to be a target, why is this person acting like there is nothing going on, what are they thinking, do I need to stop them before they get away, but you're walking, everything should be fine, it's not, you're all alone. I've been aware of this fear for a while, I don't know where it came from, I've always had it, I can't pinpoint an exact moment it started or sprouted from. I'm cured now, you can't be cured from a fear but I feel better about it, and that's the only thing you can do about fears, you always have them and they are always deep rooted in you but you can feel more at ease with them. I died alone, crushed by a plane engine in my sleep, in my own bedroom, but I died complete. I did what I needed to do and that's fine with me, as fine as I can be with dying.
