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CHAPTER 17

Jennie's P.O.V.

"This is.. a cemetery..." I look up to him. "Yes it is.." we went to a tombstone and a name written there, Song Han-ee .

"Who are we visiting?"

"My mother.. Not by blood but by heart.. "

"she cared for me much more than my real mother who cares more about her company..." She's just like my auntie then. Someone who truly cares for me.. Unlike my mother, who left me..

"But she got kicked out of the house soon since my father seems to love her.. But she was a good person.." a forbidden love.. Just like ours, it's never bound to work..

"When my father told her of his affection for her, she also felt something inside her but she chose not to be his woman and just stayed as a maid." we both had that feeling, a strong feeling.. Which we always thought was something very wrong but it seemed so right..

"But unfortunately my father always shows too much affection .. one day my father can't help it and she kissed her.. But it was only a kiss... Nothing more else." and we kissed.. A long, passionate and dreamy one..

"But they were caught red handed, and she got kicked out." and we found out we weren't siblings. I found out things won't be the same as before..

"But my father still meets her even though she would avoid him..." you ran after me, even though i told you not to.. You weren't convinced of me saying I don't need you.and you ask me again and again. And you kissed me one last time, before we said goodbye..

"One night, my mother knew what my father did and planned to go after him.. she caught them again, she slapped her, and since they were by the stairs, she fell..." jimin caught me in the rain, he saved me and comforted me. When i thought i didn't need him anymore, i still do. I need him in my life, but it just can't be..

"The stairs were quite high and some of her bones got broken.. but she got out still.. She had recovered.. " My feelings were so deep that i fell into a trap. Jimin helped me escape it, and I surpassed the uneasiness whenever I saw him..

"after how many weeks, my mother planned to divorce my father and sooner they got divorced .. " I decided I would forget him but I just can't.. And so I let my feelings go unnoticed."

"My father had the chance to be together with her, but she got tired of her life, she took pills, and jumped on the bridge.. yet, her body was not found.. " we had the chance, but i didn't want to. All I want is for the best and so I ignored him. I tried to avoid him, and my feelings but i don't find myself without him.. Because I still have feelings for him..

"Until now, I still try to find her body but we cannot find it... so I made this.. to have her remembered..." I stopped with my thoughts and snapped back at reality.. I rubbed his back, bringing him comfort.

"I am so sorry to hear, Jimin.." I felt sorry.. It's like I could connect to their story..

"After her loss, my father has become too focused on his work to forget the pain.. He forgets me and has less time with me..'' I hope you'll start to forget me Taehyung.. Cause you have to.. And I have to..

"one night, he left me for the USA and gave me lots of money, properties and things I don't really need.. I needed his love.. " i needed his love.. And he knew but he didn't want me to feel pressured or sorry about it...

"He should have comforted me too , that he is not the only one hurting.. But he left... He didn't even said he loves me or he'll miss me or just some words to make me feel alive, loved. But no... " and then I was reminded by my mother. My mother who left me, for her own good.. A mother, who never consoled me. A mother, who never made me feel like i was her daughter.. Who made me feel unwanted..

I wasn't the only one in the world that felt lonely and alone and there he is.. He is also broken.. Just like me..

"And i don't even get why the person I love gets to die.. She was so caring, loving, and she would be by my side always.. When I am happy, she celebrates with me, when I am in sorrow, she'd comfort me and be a shoulder for me to cry... She cannot be replaced by anyone.. She was the best mother in the world.. She'd hide her sadness and pretend she's happy so I won't worry.. She was selfless. I didn't deserve such a parent like her. " tears fell down from his eyes. He was still lucky. Lucky that he had a mother to love him.. Just like my aunt..

I rubbed his back, "you deserved her Jimin.. It's the world who doesn't deserve her. The world was too cruel.. and just so you know, Jimin, I could be a shoulder to cry on too.." he looks at me and smiles and he put his head on my shoulder... and it suddenly makes me remember Taehyung.. But i shouldn't think of him at this moment.. A moment where someone is hurt.

Can't you stop thinking of Taehyung, Jennie!

"I thought I was the only one suffering in this cruel world, Jimin.. but here you are, telling me those things.. The world is so cruel.. It doesn't deserve us. We need to be strong Jimin.. You need to be.. You think she'll be happy seeing you in pain? " he looks at me and wipes his tears away..

"Thanks Jennie..." I smile, "Of course Ji-" he suddenly hugs me.. " No one hasn't really known about this.. They won't understand it so i thought you would... " he pulls back, releases me..

"Ah.. I look so stupid for crying... a man shouldn't cry in front of women.."

"Why not? Who cares what you look like? Isn't your feelings more important than the way you look?"

"jimin, why did you bring me here though?"

"it's because you're special.. And I just wanna let these feelings off my chest. I knew you would understand me more than anyone could Jennie.. I'm sorry i had to make you feel sorry for me.."

"you shouldn't feel sorry Jimin.. I'm here because I want to be by your side.. There's nothing to feel sorry for."

"and by the way, isn't it my birthday again?" I added, to change the topic.. There's too much drama going on...

" oh yeah.. Well, what's your wish for today? "

"I wish you would stop crying and be happy the rest of the day.."

"Then, be by my side.. And i will be happy.."

Then stay by my side, Jennie, and I won't cry no more...

I remembered Taehyung telling me the exact same thing..

Jimin, why do you always remind me of him?

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