A solders love " bug head "

Betty

It was Christmas and everyone was over and dinner was almost done and everyone was done with presents we all sat at the table and jugs phone went off so he stepped on the porch to answer. You heard mumbled yelling and I got up and went out there as he screamed and threw his phone it scared me so I stepped back " juggie " I said kinda scared he looked at me and he immediately was trying to fix things and you could she everyone watching from the table

" betts I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you "

" are you okay "

" no and you won't be once I tell you , this is messing up my life "

" calm down " he went to put his hand on my shoulder but I got scared and backed up

" don't be scared betts please I didn't mean to scare you "

" I never seen you so angry I don't know what you would do "

" I'd never in a billion years hurt you and it hurts to think you think that "

" I don't know what you would do because you've never been so mad I i just got scared "

" I won't hurt you and I will never in my life hurt you "

" what's going on "

" that was the army and they need more guys for a 6 month trip and I have no choice but I have to go because I haven't been out for a full year so they can still use me till my year is up and at the end of the 6 months it's over but I have to leave " then I got angry I pushed him not hard but he moved back a little and then I hit his chest repeatedly slowly breaking down crying but soon found myself wrapped around his waist hugging him tightly uncontrollably balling in his chest. I was so terrified to raise Alex alone for six months and just go without jug for six months I felt him cry and he every once awhile he would kiss my head softly and rub my back " I'm so sorry " he mumbled I still was sobbing then his parents came out but they went back in. Someone came out

" Alex is screaming " I went in with my red face and I took alex and went to the bedroom.I fed him and he was fine after jellybean came in and she crawled into my lap and hugged me

" Its okay big sister . " i hugged her back . " Jug doesnt want to "

" Can you go tell jug that i want to talk to him . "

" Yeah" she jumped up and ran off i put alex in his crib in his room . then sat on the bed across from jug . i looked at his eyes and they just said everything they said how sad he was and how much he was sorry i broke down crying crawling in his lap as he held me .

" i'm so sorry i don't want to but i have no choice . "

" Shh i just want you to hold me "

" okay "

" I want you to snuggle and never be let go of . "

" i am so sorry . "

" Jug it doesn't matter how many times you say it because you cant change it and it wasnt your fault so stop apologize you never did anything wrong i love you i love alex and i will wait i always do you know that but i have to raise are kid alone . "

" I know i just i sorry . "

" Its okay just don't die please . "

" I leave in a week "

" I don't care "

" I love you to much it sucks to leave . "

" i thought this was over i thought this was over . " i laid my head on his shoulder . " Are you okay "