After the Storm//Poetry

12|Knowledge of Love

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I think about you all the time
Day after day
Night after night
My head is filled with thoughts of you
You're all I can think about
You're all I want to think about

I don't understand my feelings
I don't even know if they're considered feelings
But I know this much
My feelings have always been true
So these feelings are the same
My feelings for you are true

I won't say I love you
If I don't mean it
So yes
I love you
You're an amazing friend
And I love you for it

You're someone I want to have in my life
I want you to remain there forever
I don't want to lose you
I'm still scared from my past
But I'll try to make sure I don't lose you
I want you to be near me

I hope you realize my feelings
That my love may not be pure
But my love will always be true
That no matter what you do
I'll always come to forgive you
That's how much I love you

If it's wrong to be gay
I'm sorry I'm this way
But maybe I'm just longing for love
Because I've never had it
I've always been alone
And forgotten

I've never mattered
Near as much as I wanted to matter
Call it wrong for me to feel this way
But I know that this love I feel for you
Could be one of two ways
I love you as my friend for sure

But what if I love you as more
How would you feel then
Reject me if you must
You could say I am used to it
As rejection is all I've know
All I've known about love

But whatever you decide
I'll love you somehow
Because I care way too much
About the people I love
They matter too much
So I could never hate them

I'm not one to hate
I've never been able to
All the people who hurt me
I still love them somehow
So for you
It would be the same

I'd love you if you hurt me
Because I love you that much
I'll forgive you any time
But I could never forget you
So this is my knowledge
My knowledge about love
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