After the Storm//Poetry

11|Why

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Why did you act like I mattered
Why did you use me
Use me like a rag
And once I was dirty and used
You just threw me away

Why did you treat me like this
When you knew what I'd been through
Why did you make me cry so much
When you knew that I was broken inside still
Why did you do this

I thought you were my friend
But maybe I was wrong
Maybe there's no such thing as friends
Maybe friends don't exist
Because all the friends I've ever had used me at their consent

They used me when I was needed
And threw me away when I was no longer needed
So why
Why did I trust you
And why did I love you

When I knew deep down
That I'd get hurt
I was a fool
A fool just for you
I would've done anything for you

But you wouldn't do the same
You'd use me like this
And break my heart all over again
If you had the chance
So why

Why was I so stupid
To trust you
When I knew the truth
Why did I put my heart out there for you
When I knew all you'd do was break it

Why did I love you so much
They say if you love someone enough
You'll learn to let them go
How come I can't let you go
Do I not love you enough

How much more do I need to love you
In order for me to be able to let you go
Because all I need right now
Is to be able to let you go
Because you're hurting me

You're ruining all I am
And I can't let this happen anymore
I need to let you go
I want to let you go
But I can't

I can't let you go
Because I still love you
And I still want you back
Despite all the hurt you've caused me
Why

Why do I still love you
When you've caused me more pain
Then anyone I've ever known
Why do still want you back
When I know that this will happen again

I don't understand it
But I just have one question
That I'm waiting for the answer for
That I'm searching for the answer for
Why
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