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There's something I miss about you
Maybe it was the warm aura you gave off
Or the sweet smile you always gave me
But in reality
I know deep down it was what I believed us to be
That I believed us to be the truest of true

I guess it was just a dream I had in mind
There's nothing I can do to change what has happened
Our futures have faded
They go in opposite directions
And will never collide
So now I'm considered nothing but blind

Did I cause my own downfall
Was I the cause of my own demise
I don't understand it
But it must be true
Because if it wasn't I wouldn't blame myself
So all I can do now is stall

I don't want to accept reality
So I reject the thought of the truth
I turn away and make sure to keep my mind clear
Because I can't accept it
Because if I admit it
All will agree

That a fool is what I've been
I just want to feel closure
But I don't know when I'll get it
So I find a way to get away
Because deep down
I don't want to admit my sin
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