To Live Forever

Chapter 32

Logan watched his brother and Jason leave the living room together.

It was too much. Logan's blood was still boiling as he thought of whomever had targeted Nathan and his gang. He wanted nothing more than to gun the fuckers several times in the head.

He clenched his jaw, his vision swimming as his mind told him to just fuck everything up by going on a killing spree until he found the people behind this.

He exhaled lowly with his nose and then shut his eyes as he thought of his brother.

What would have happened if he had...no, he wouldn't think that way. Nothing happened to Nathan. Nothing would happen to Nathan.

It was so crazy. To think that Aria risked her life for someone she met a month ago. Logan was so thankful for her. She saved his brother. Whatever the outcome of all this, he knew one thing. He would do anything to save Aria. After everything she had done, he didn't care if she wasn't a part of his gang or the gang world, she was family.

He got up and fast walked out of the living area, up to his own room. Ignoring Hayden's shouts to him, he locked the door and sat down on the bed.

He was so tired. Just...done. He didn't want to do this anymore. Didn't want to wake up every fucking morning and think if today he would loose any of his friends, his family. He just wanted to live a normal life, but it was too late. He was incharge of too much. He had too much pressure on his head. He had too much responsibility. And he couldn't let anyone down. He couldn't turn his back to anyone, not even people he trusted, or he would learn that he shouldn't trust anyone easily the hard way.

Logan just hoped that he would be able to save everyone when the time came.

***

Jason sat in his room, tilting the gun in his palm and watching it catch the dim sunlight again and again.

He stared at the cold object, the shining black exterior and the sleek design which could easily end someone's life in the matter of seconds.

He had been responsible for so many people's deaths in the last month. Did he feel remorse? Yes. Did he regret joining the gang? No. But would he like to change the way he had become now? Maybe.

He thought about how easily he could just kill someone like that. How easily he could just pull a gun on someone's head. Be it someone good or bad. It made him think of how he had come to this. How did he actually end up being here? Killing people for a living? Hurting people? If seventeen year old Jason saw nineteen year old Jason, he was sure he would have the shock of his life. He was never like this.

Jason sighed and got up, putting the gun back on his side table and thinking.

Whomever he was two or three years ago,it didn't matter. This was Jason. Right here. And he wasn't a bad guy. He didn't think anyone in the world was bad. Just confused.

***

"Hey. I need your help."

Logan told his childhood friend everything and heard her gasp.

"At the warehouse?! How could they have known?" Rose almost shrieked and Logan sighed, telling her to calm down.

"Rosie, I don't know. I'm so confused. I don't know how they knew about the warehouse but they do. And that is what worried me the most. They know the main head quarter of Gray Dawn. Even if its not officially one, but everyone in the gang world considers it. I just...I don't know. And the attack on Nathan. I-I'd never been more scared in my life when Noah told me that he saw the attacker in Nathan's room, aiming his gun at him. I felt so... angry. I wanted to-to kill someone, but I need to be calm for everyone right now. And I just...I don't know if I can be that right now."