see, it used to be like this:
i'd be sitting in my chair, minding
my own business, being bored as
hell and wanting very badly to talk
to you. your green light showed me
that you were online, but my finger
tripped over the enter key and
refused to be the first one to say
something. it's not empowering
and it's not pretty, but it was the
reality for me and it is for nearly every
other single and lonely teenage girl.
sometimes it's still like that,
but now things are different. now
we're actually dating and it's socially
acceptable to message you more
often than i should, sometimes i still
feel like "what am i doing why am i
still talking to you because you're
probably bored of me and i don't
even know why you'd want to talk
to me in the first place but i really
need to talk to you so don't stop."
and that's what insecurity is, kids.
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