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lovely rejection

i would never trash you;
i'm not taylor swift
(anything but.)

and yet i'd be lying to say
you didn't hurt me.

you promised me you didn't want to hurt me.
you sounded like you cared about me.
you made me feel special.
you made me feel like you loved me,
even if that definition of love
maybe wasn't so lovey as mine.

maybe it's because you were so nice
to me, when you told me you didn't want
to ever cause me pain, and
cared about me not being crushed,

but if you asked me if i was okay right now,
i would answer yes.

because i still do love you.
however odd that seems.
and because you were as nice as you were,
not hurting me,
i'm not hurting you, either.
that's the reason i'm lying.
i'm fine.