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ex best friends

[a/n - did i say tired of screaming? guess what that was a lie]

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT THE GIRL YOU ONCE CONSIDERED YOUR BEST FRIEND NOW VIEWS YOU AS SUCH A LOW PRIORITY THAT SHE CAN GO FOR TWENTY MINUTES WITHOUT RESPONDING AND CRITICIZE YOU FOR ASKING IF SHE'S THERE? DO YOU?
I THINK I'LL TAKE A MOMENT TO EXPLAIN. IT FEELS LIKE YOU GAVE SOMEONE ELSE A PART OF YOUR HEART AND WHEN THEY SAID THEY WERE LEAVING, YOU SAID "IT'S OKAY. KEEP IT, AND THINK OF ME." YOU SAID THAT AND THEY'VE KEPT IT BUT THEY HAVEN'T THOUGHT OF YOU. THEY HAVEN'T EVEN THOUGHT OF YOU ONCE. THEY JUST KEEP IT SO THAT THEY CAN SHOW IT TO YOU IF YOU COME OVER FOR TEA AND SAY "OH YES I'VE NEVER FORGOTTEN YOU." AND IF YOU DON'T COME OVER TO TEA? EVENTUALLY THEY'LL JUST TOSS IT DOWN THE GARBAGE CHUTE OF EX BEST FRIENDS AND NO ONE WILL EVER SEE IT NOR THINK OF IT AGAIN. THAT'S WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE. THAT'S HOW MUCH IT HURTS. A PART OF MY HEART HAS GONE DOWN A GARBAGE CHUTE AND IS BEING INCINERATED AND IT HURTS, IT FUCKING HURTS.
WILL SOMEONE JUST MAKE IT END.