Who Was My Mother?

Chapter 23

Present time

Author's POV

"So my mother was.. Murdered?" Seventeen year old Noah asked.

"Yeah, she got killed.. I'm sorry kiddo." Fin said sadly.

"I'm glad she wanted you to take care of me. And I'm glad you told me the story!"

"Do you want to get your letter?" Fin asked and Noah nodded.

Fin went into his room and came back a moment later.

"Here you go." He have him an envelope.

"I think I'll open it when I go to bed. Is that okay?"

"Offcourse. I also have some other things to show you from your mother. Wanna see?"

Noah nodded, and Fin showed him a picture album with lots of photos.

"This is the first picture of you. It's from your birthmother. This is the first pic of you and Olivia." Fin explained, pointing at the picture of Olivia holding Noah. "She looks very happy." Noah whispered, trying not to cry. "This was the happiest time of her life. Never doubt one minute that she loved you. She loved you above everything, and I've never met a mother who was more proud of her child as she was." Some tears escaped Noah's eyes.

"Here are the pictures from when she used to bring you to the squad. You with Amaro and Rollins. Here's one of me and you! This is Elliot, I don't know if you remember him?" Fin said when an old picture of Elliot fell out. It was from before Noah was born, and Fin actually didn't know why it was in the album.

"Not really.. What happened to him?"

"Uhm.. Well when he didn't get you, and Olivia was gone, he moved away.. Alex took over Liv's apartment.. I haven't heard from him in 15 years, but I think he lives in Florida somewhere..."

"So auntie Alex lives in moms old place?"

"Yup. And Josh's bedroom, is your old room."

Noah smiled at the thought of Alex's five year old kid.

"Isn't that Grandpa and me?" Noah asked pointing on a picture of him and Cragen.

"Yes it is. He hasn't changed that much huh?" Fin laughed.

Noah had always called Cragen "grandpa" and Cragen was very proud of it. He didn't get any kids of his own, and now he's 80 years old, so he probably won't get any now..

"This is you and uncle Munch."

"Look these are from the babyshower we held for you and Olivia at the precint!"

They looked through all the pictures, and came to the ones of the time when Olivia was hospitilized.

"These are all taken at the hospital. You can see how your mom's hair is falling off."

"But she still smiled all the time!" Noah pointed out.

Fin smiled and hugged him. "That smile only excisted when you were in the room or when she talked about you!"

Noah and Fin sat for nearly an hour looking after old pictures and homevideos of Olivia and Noah playing and stuff.

"Okay, I think I'll go to bed now." Noah said tired.

"I was wondering if we should invite everyone here tomorrow?" Fin asked.

Noah knew that by 'everyone' he meant Cragen, Munch, Casey, Alex, Nick and Amanda and their kids and husbands/wives.

"Yeah that would be fun. Any perticular reason?"

"I thought they could bring all their pics of Liv and we could all watch them together?"

"Yeah that sounds awesome!

Goodnight dad." Noa said kissing Fin's cheek.

"Goodnight lil man."

When Noah was in bed, he took the letter and opened it.

His eyes were already in tears when he started reading it.

"Dear Noah.

It's hard writing this. I have to get used to calling you Noah, I always called you pumpkin.

You're probably all grown up now huh?

I most likely died of cancer, but I'm sure Fin told you the story. I hope your staying at Fin's.

You need to know that I loved you very much. I told Fin not to talk about me that often, since I was scared it would make you feel sad. I wanted you to get old enough to ask for it yourself. Old enough to understand.

You were my dream come true Noah. I'm glad of every second I got to spend with you! I loved you with all my heart, and I hope I made the right decision when I asked Fin to take are of you.

You're the cutest kid I've ever known, and I wish I got to see you grew up.

There are so many things I want to do with you before I go to heaven, but I hope you'll do them with Fin instead.

Never doubt one minute that I loved you!!

You're the best thing that ever happened to me!

If you feel alone at any time, know that I'm always here watching you. I'll never stop loving you.

I hope you'll be a sweet young man, and that you'll get an education and stuff.

But never do anything that doesn't make you happy. Always listen to yourself!

I love you so so much Noah.

I'll always love you.

Be strong, and keep me in your heart.

Like Winnie the Poo said (you loved Winnie the Poo) "if there comes a time when we can't be together, keep me in your heart I'll stay there forever."

I love you pumpkin.

Xoxo mommy:)"

Noah smiled at the letter, while crying.

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