Who Was My Mother?

Chapter 13

16 years earlier

Author's POV

The days that followed after Olivia's birthday were tough on her. She saw Noah each day, but that was the only time she was happy. The chemo had taken all her hair and she was weak.

The doctors had told her that she wasn't really responding to the treatment.

It didn't look good for Olivia Benson.

Casey came to visit one day.

"Hi sweetie."

"Hi Casey. How are you?"

"Liv, I'm supposed to ask that, not you." She chuckled.

"Sorry. I'm.. I'm still alive. But the doctor told me yesterday that I don't respond good to the treatment. He said it doesn't look good. I've lost all my hair to the chemo, and I've lost 15pounds! I'm just a shadow of myself! I don't know if I can do this anymore. Maybe the cancer should win.."

Casey had tears in here eyes. "This is not the Olivia Benson I knew. She wouldn't let cancer win. She would fight till the very end! Think of Noah."

"I am thinking of him! What kind of mother am I, letting my son see me like this?! If I was gone, he would grow up with some Healthy people!!"

There was a knock on the door.

"Who's that?" Olivia asked Casey.

"It's Elliot. I told him to come."

"No-. I don-." "You guys need to talk. I'll leave now. Stay strong Liv!"

Then Casey left, and in came Elliot.

"Hi" he said carefully. "Hi" Olivia answered quietly.

"I'm really sorry I left like that Olivia. I didn't know what to do."

"You could've said goodbye" Olivia said her voice cracking over. She tried to hold back her tears, but failed.

"I know. I'm sorry." Elliot said also with tears in his eyes.

"I have loved you for years. All those years as your partner, I loved you. When you was dating, I always hated the guys. When you broke up with them, I felt sorry for you, but inside I hoped you would grow to like me more than a friend. When you looked into adoption, I was hoping we would adopt a baby someday, or get our own. I loved you Olivia. I hoped leaving would finally erase my feelings for you. But it didn't, if anything, they grew stronger. I love you Olivia!" Elliot said.

Olivia was still crying silently.

"I-. I-I love you too. I have for years. I couldn't tell you. We were partners. You were married! You have kids Elliot. It was never simple for us. It still isin't." "Kathy and I divorced three months before I left. I didn't love her Olivia. I even found out that Eli isin't even my kid!"

"Elliot, I'm sick! I have a kid now!" "So what?! I will love Noah as was he my own! So what if you're sick! I know you call pull through this! You're strong Olivia! Please give us a chance." He begged.

Olivia didn't say anything at first. After a while of thinking, she wiped away her tears and nodded. "Okay."