My Guiding Light

Chapter 31

Season: 4

Episode: Lucifer Rising

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Sam, Ruby and myself are positioned in a cellar with the captured demon that works for Lilith. It's fun to watch the bitch struggle.

I stand in the corner, observing as my brother tortured her for information without even raising a finger. Part of me feels bad, feels wrong for letting this happen. But I push it aside. This has to happen. Greater good and all that. Well, a selfish good but I mean I'm sure everyone will be thankful for having less angels around.

"Stop! Stop! Please!" The demon begs after my turn of torture. It almost leaves Dean for shame... almost...

"You'll tell us where she is?" I hum with a slight head tilt, my hand caressing her cut up cheek. I smirk as she pulls away from the touch. I've done my job.

"Fine. Fine. Just... let me die." The demon bargains.

"Deal." Sam jumps in before I can deny her the relief. I sigh but go with it. She looks at my brother with thankful eyes.

"Tomorrow night. Midnight." She says, taking deep breaths. "She's gonna be at a convent. St Mary's, Ilchester, Maryland.

"A convent?" Sam questions

"She's gonna break the final seal." The broken demon clarifies

"What's the final seal?" Sam asks and I glance at her with warning. I know exactly what it is and Sam can't know.

"I don't know." She says quickly. As Sam goes to torture her again she screams and squirms. "I really don't know! Please, I'm begging you, kill me!"

"Fine." Sam says, going to kill her but both Ruby and I stop him. "You can't." We both say.

"Why?" He asks, looking between the two most important women in his life.

"Because... you'll need the juice." I say simply, glancing at the demon. "Host is already dead so don't go going soft on me, understand?"

Just to prove me a liar, the fucking demon lets the innocent back into consciousness and I groan, glaring at the confused and panicking girl.

"Great." Ruby mutters. I'm thinking the same. If anything is gonna steer Sam away it's the thought of killing someone who is simply a bystander.

—

We reconvene at a motel, me lounging around, looking at the ceiling, Sam doing research and ruby just standing nearby it all.

"Get this. St Mary's - abandoned in 72 after priest disembowelled eight nuns."

I smirk, from the sounds of Ruby's voice, so does she. "What's black, white and red all over." She says and I snort.

"Not funny." Sam says and I shrug. "Kinda is."

"You've kinda lost it." He retorts but all I do is poke my tongue out at him.

"The priest said it wasn't his fault. He said a demon made him do it." Sam continues, ignoring my childishness. "He even remembered the demons name."

"Yeah?"

"Azazel." I tense up and turn so I'm sitting upright in the bed.

"So there's yellow-eyes...Lilith..." I trail off.

"Certainly gives the joint credibility." Ruby finishes and I nod.

"As a place where the final seal goes down."

"Good enough for me, lets pack up nurse Betty and let's go." Ruby says, waving a hand as if to say follow me.

"Hey, maybe. Um... look..." I sigh as I hear Sam speak up. Shit. He was gonna go all good on us. I mean, I could finish it, sure, but Sam was Lucifer's vessel - not me. Angels forced only them and I know who to create me so Michael could jump me. Not Lucifer. And now I've gone darkside I'm not a match for either of them. Suck on that bitches. Though, that does mean I need to serve by my brothers side when he inevitably says yes but I can live with that.

"That blubbery 'don't hurt me' crap was an act Sam. She's trying to get to you." Ruby lies. I look between the two of them, hoping he buys it.

—

"What are you? A 12 year old girl? Play it already." Ruby says as Sam eyes the voicemail from Dean. I know I don't have one but I know that voicemail probably has something about me on it. Not that I care, I either do this or the angels kill me. I'm doing this.

The girl with the demon inside keeps banging on the trunk, screaming for help. At one point I was tempted to just drain her and let Sam drink it from a bottle rather than a body.

"God I wish she would shut up." Sam mutters

"That can be arranged." Ruby says before looking at Sam's accusing glare. This was not the time to go soft. Not at all. "I don't get it. All the demons you've cut with the knife, what do you think happens to the host? How is this different?"

"That supposed to make me feel any better?"

"Sam, You've gotta do this." I say.

"Would you two drop the attitude? I'm about to bleed an innocent woman dry."

"And save the rest of the world." Ruby adds and I scrunch up my nose, hoping Sam doesn't realise my accidental use of my Tell.

"Maybe Dean was Right." Sam says and my attention snaps completely to him.

"Excuse me? Wanna say that again?"

"Maybe he was right. About everything."

My glance hardens and I look to Ruby to say something. If the twin can't convince him, maybe the demon lover can.

"We're gonna see this through, right Sam? Sam?" She says, trying to get the attention of my brother who seems to be focusing on the screams of our hostage.

—

Sam gave in. Thank fuck. Sure, it's because he listened to Dean's voicemail but I'll take anything at this point. Absolutely anything. I don't know what was on it but it must have been bad.

Sam storms into the chapel where Lilith is, both me and Ruby close behind. With a simple flick of the wrist by Sam and white-eyes goes flying. Sam flicks his wrist again and Lilith is pinned to the alter.

From behind me I can hear Dean but with a simple glance to my side and then back to the hall, I know Ruby has him covered. I'm glad she's just keeping the doors closed rather than killing him. If it went that far, I may end up changing my mind on the deal.

There is too much banter for my liking, too much background noise of Dean trying to warn Sam that it's a trap. That killing Lilith is the final Seal and that I'm literally evil and so is Ruby. If only they knew the real plan...

I blink a few times as I watch Sam's power and anger surge, ultimate killing Lilith.

Her body lies on the floor, blood pooling in an abnormal way and yet the boys haven't noticed yet. Dean has made his way into the room after Ruby's speech of being Lilith's most loyal, how Sam managed to jumpstart the end of the world. How she worked through her ultimate betrayal. I'm just standing there, holding my breath as I stare at the pooling blood.

"You're too late." Ruby says smugly.

"I don't care." Dean snarls, storming to the demon and stabbing her in the stomach as Sam holds her from behind. He then snaps his attention to me.

"You... you were in on all this." He growls, backing me up into a corner.

"Now Dean... you wouldn't..." I say, trying my best to not die right now.

"No." Sam speaks up from right behind Dean. Dean hands the knife over. "But I would. I'm sorry, MJ." He says as softly as words of promised murder can be spoken. Even the way he rams the blade into my stomach and gently lowers my shaking and dying body to the ground is gentle and loving. "I'm sorry too." I mutter, staring into my other half's eyes

My brothers always were the kind to shoot first and ask questions later.