Undercover

Chapter 31 ~ Decisions

Beatrice

When will my life really begin? I mean.. I'm living but it doesn't feel right. Something's just missing. It's been a month now since everything happened.. And I feel alone. Mom's out and so is Josh. Me and mom, we've settled our differences and learned to stand each other.

For the past few days I've been hanging out with Matt. He's been there for me ever since.. It happened.

I don't want to think about it yet. Right now I have no one to talk to. Matt has a girlfriend now and I support him but.. I miss him too. Jeez, my life is complex.

And what's with people and changing their names? I mean, there's absolutely nothing wrong with their names! Were people always this secretive?

I was about to think about new things, other than the one's that made me feel depressed. But the doorbell rang.

I quickly jumped out the bed and ran towards the door. Matt. Please tell me you're here. I swung it open. I gaped at the person on my doorstep.

"Luke?"

"Hello Beatrice, my future sister in-law." He said with a wink. I quickly grabbed the door to close. I guess he was quicker. I don't know how, but he got inside.

"Now, now, you must not be rude to your friend, if not future brother in-law." He winked again.

"Dude. Get out. I don't need any more drama in my life." I said simply. I could not believe how calm I was about this. After all the unexpected things.. I've learned to cope with them, I guess.

"Okay, okay. I'm kidding. I came here to tell you we're leaving. We have to go back to film. I just wanted to know if you would... You know.." He trailed off.

"What?" I asked.

"You know.." He said looking me in the eye. I seriously know what he wants me to do. I pretended to act dumb. I looked at him with confused eyes and tilted my head to the left.

"Forget it. It was stupid to come here. Beatrice, my brother was seriously sorry. At first I hated him, for doing those things to you. But now.. I get him. It's you I don't get." He said shaking his head. I see the pain in his eyes. What have I done?

"He hasn't been eating or sleeping much. He's blamed himself for everything. He just sits there holding that picture of you in his wallet. He keeps muttering over and over. 'Why did I have to be so stupid? why did I let her go? why didn't I believe her? It's too late.' Beatrice. Tell me if you think he's still okay." He continued. "And I was all like.. 'Why didn't you believe her? Why were you so stupid? Why did you let her go? Yes, yes it's too late.' "

I was left shocked. What did I do. What have I done. I can't believe this..

"When do you guys leave?" I asked.

"Tomorrow." He said. What? It's too soon! But.. Do I want him to leave? He's been the cause of my problems. Do I want to risk that?

"Just in case. Here's your ticket. I'm not asking you to forgive him. I'm asking you to continue the filming. You're a major part. Do you really want to be that selfish. Don't you care about the people who want to see that show?" He said seriously.

I thought about what he said again and again. Quite harsh if you would ask me. We then said our goodbyes.

Matt and I talked to each other, that night. He talked about his girlfriend. I'm so happy for him. I didn't want to ruin it but.. I needed advice.