Shadowhunters Season 4

Strong man without the pain

Mom was bleeding. I ran to her to look. Her head has been bleeding. I couldn't draw the fucking Iratze. Stupid Clave! Stupid rules. I shouted for help then I was terrified. I ran to cradle and it was covered with blood but no Max! How stupid I was! I shouted harder. Many Shadowhunters came and looked at me. I was still shouting! They took mom. They tired to touched me but I pushed them away. I couldn't stop shouting until Jace came. He looked at the room then he looked at me. I looked at his eyes too. Then I fell down and started to cry. He hold me soon enough before hitting my head. He told everyone to get out. He was just holding me. I couldn't stop crying. My baby Max. He was gone. Just like my brother I couldn't protect him. Finally Jace talked.
" What happened?" He said. silently.
" I... don't know. I was going tell mom that there is an emergency and I need to go but when I came... everywhere was covered... and Max was gone!" I started to cry again. I have not cryed that much since I was 11.
" What will I tell to Magnus? I was the one who want him since I saw him. I lost him, Jace. They took him! How?" I cryed.
" We'll get him back. Magnus brought a powerful warlock. She will heal Clary. And Simon told us a little bit about the war. We will go there and also tell them about him. Okay?" He asked.
" They won't care about a warlock baby. My baby. Magnus and I need to go. How Jace? How I am going to ..." I couldn't finish my sentence because of the person who is at the door.
" Alexander, What happened? I saw Maryse. I came here as soon as I healed her. ( Then he looked at me and Jace and cradle again.) Where is Max?" I couldn't answer it he went straight to cradle and stood there without moving. I stood up and went to him. He didn't turn. So I talked.
" Everywhere was covered with blood and Max..." but I couldn't finish it again. He turned me angrily and pointed his finger at me.
" Stop! Don't finish that sentence. That's why I wanted to find someone to adopt Max in first place. We are always in danger. He deserves a normal life."  He lifted the cradle and threw it.
" Is this normal! We don't know where the hell or with who is he?" Then he sat on the floor and hold his head. I know that he won't cry in front of Jace. But I sat down and hugged him and he let me. But I was wrong. He was crying and hugged me. When I looked I couldn't see Jace. He probably left. I didn't know how many minutes we were holding each other and crying. But then a young woman came. Magnus looked at her and tried to stand up but she came closer and Magnus stopped holding me and he hold her. He was even crying more deeply now. I just stood there and watch them. She must be the warlock who Jace was talking about. A couple of minutes later Magnus stood back. And she turned to me .
" I am Tessa. I have knew Magnus for a long time. Also I am great great great grandmother of your Parabatai." She said. I looked at her face and I couldn't believe that she could be Jace's ancestor. Warlocks can't have child. She answered like she understood me.
" I am a bit different but it is not time for me to tell it. We need to talk immediately and need to find your baby. I have an idea that where he can be." She said.