Shadowhunters Season 4

Herondales

I love Herondales but I am done with Jace. He could be the first Shadowhunter I killed. I need to look for Max. My little blueberry. He must really scared. But first I need to solve this stupid Clave thing. I will sent Simon and Jace with Helen and Aline. That's way I gave them a little time to calm down. And also for myself. I have never felt so powerless. (Even when I literally lost them.) I need to pull myself together but I don't know if I can. Maybe not for me. But for Alec. I will try. I need to.

  My dream of a city covered with blood stopped after Jonathan's death. But I started to see it again and I can feel that something will happen soon. Worse than Jonathan. I don't know what but if we went into this war. We are all going to lose. We can't let any war to happen.
''Magnus, you and Alec can go. I'll open a portal for them.'' Tessa said. I fell more confident when she is here. I am glad that she is. She is the only one who can understand me. She lost both of her loved ones. I wasn't there when she lost Jem. But I was with her when she lost Will.

  But I can't believe that he is dead. I can't. And I won't. Like Tessa said they have to kidnapped him. It means they want to use him to have an advantage. And I know that she can open the portal but she can't force Simon and Jace to go together.
'' We are going to talk with them. Then you can open the portal while we start the searching.'' I said. She nodded. Then Helen turned to me.
'' We will help you as soon as we can, Magnus. I promise.'' Helen said. I still can't believe I have really good relationships with Shadowhunters. I nodded and went outside. I can't be in here anymore . I know they just want to help but I don't want them to pity me. I'll find my son. I'll burn the world to find him. I will.
I heard a noise so I looked back to see who was there.
'' Is she Jace's ancestor?Really? '' Alec asked. I know he tried to distrect his self that's way I kissed him. I steped back and looked at him in the eye. I want to comfort him but I just answered his question.
'' Yes, she is. It is an interesting story. I'll you later. But don't tell Jace yet. She wants to tell him. She only told you because she didn't want you to think that she was my ex. While we all know how you would react. ( He looked me angry and hit me.) Ouch! That heard! ( I smiled.) All I can tell you for now is she is half nefilim half demon. Yes it is impossible but she is special. Just like you.'' I said softly. And I caressed his cheek.
'' Magnus, I am really afraid. I don't want to deal with Jace's ego and Clave. Can't we just go? I can't hold myself.'' He said sadly.
'' I promise we will. If you don't want to deal with him just tell him to do. Okay?'' I asked. He answered with a kissed an walked through the hall. And I opened the door of Maryse's room. Izzy was sitting on a chair next to the bed. And Simon was behind her and holding her shoulder. He raised his head. I looked at him and showed the door. He whispered something in Izzy's ear. She didn't respond like she wasn't hearing about that all. But Simon came outside anyway with me. Even if he was a disaster. He closed the door after him.
'' I know that Jace is the last person who you want see but you need to go with him to Alicante for me as downworlder. Can you?'' I asked. I didn't see a reason to made this conversation longer so I striated to the point. It would be unnecessary for both of us.
'' You are right but I am not selfish like him. I'll tell Izzy and go. But I don't know if he would want. I am also a bit curios that why he let me to punch him.'' He said. But I know why exactly he did. He is so much like Will. They punish them self to pushing people away from with their anger. So they will be sure that they won't forgive them. Stupid Herondales.
'' You should ask about it to Tessa she knows Herondales better than me. She'll tell you. It is in their genetic.'' I said.
'' Maybe later. Right know I want to be mad at him. You can't believe what he said!'' He said angrily.
'' What?'' I asked.
'' He said that I wanted to drink Max's blood. He said that that was the reason why I was worried.'' He answered.
'' You should have punched him harder. Couple of broken bones would be nice. But I am actually glad you didn't. He is just the old Jace. Anyway I'll be in Max's room. When Alec finished talking can you tell him to come?'' I asked.
'' Sure. I'll try to come for help.'' He said.
'' Just focus the Clave. I have bad feeling about it.'' He nodded. Then he went to the room. After that I started to walk. I needed to look the room immediately. Or I'll lose my mind.