Only you

Ally

I can't believe you actually totalled his car! How very Carrie Underwood of you" Courtney laughed whilst taking a sip of her pink gin the glass was full of ice , raspberry's and strawberries she topped it up with someone lemonade

" I mean what did he say , was he pissed oh god I can just imagine his face and the cheeky shit , asking for money as if he hasn't done enough " she sipped at her drink again

" he never said anything I mean apart  from stop , and then this happened" I held my hand to the bag of frozen peas on my fat lip
My phone rang again
Masons name flashed up I turned the phone around so I couldn't see the screen

" soo take it we are still ignoring mason? " Courtney cocked her eyebrow as she poured another glass of  pink gin this time handing it to me

I had left my painkillers at masons so alcohol would have to do I sipped at the fruity drink , I think I had finally found a drink I liked

"No,  you should of seen the way he was looking at josh whilst mauling me i mean I guess I didn't think after last night I was too caught in the moment but he wasn't doing it cause he wanted me he was doing just to piss off josh dangling me i front oh him like I'm a piece of bait" I huffed taking a larger mouthful of my drink

"Wow wow shut the fuck up!!"
" what do you mean after last night what did you do? , oh my god did you sleep with him?"
" was it good , bet he's good kades uh god he's unreal he does thing thing with his tounge ...

"Really I've heard your moaning most nights when I've stayed st masons I don't need actual visions" I held my hand up to her shaking my head

"Fine whatever just saying the man knows his way around a bedroom mmm god.." she sighed

" Courtney please in the last week I've had my mother beat the crap out of me smashed my dads car up and nearly begged mason to have sex with oh and josh also kissed me  and I nearly kissed him back the second time he tried so I don't really want visuals of you and kade having sex right now" I downed more of drink as Courtney spat hers out

"'Ok what the fuck! Exactly what happens with you and mason and josh tried again?" I didn't think her eyes could do any wider they looked almost cartoon like

" Oh god Court! I couldn't sleep so I maybe kinda snuck into his room and then one thing let to another and he kissed me oh god it's was even better than the night after the whole beach disaster "

" what! No way You kissed after the beach party!" No I was wrong her eyes got even bigger

" yes , but josh kinda interrupted and Kade which by the way where the hell where you that night" I sipped my drink looking her her cheeks flushed red

"Lets just say I was kinda exhausted , sex coma after we told each other we loved each other things really heated up ....twice " she sighed happily

" but back to you now explain exactly and don't leave out details what did you's do exactly " she smiled excitedly
I filled her in , even thinking about it again set my body wanting him , even though I was mad at him my whole body hurt each swing I took whilst holding the baseball didn't hurt at the time but my adrenaline had faded and now I was just in pain and frustration I wanted mason but I was annoyed at him the way he was using me to get to get to josh hurt was I just a game to him? See who get got to do me first

" oh my god that sounds so hot , that he said next time he wouldn't hold back , god those Carter boys they're frustrating as hell but god they're good " she sighed

" I know but now what do I do I mean. Josh has always been there for me I know you have too but I've known him since I was four years old , he's been there for everything and he's always helped me he was the one that took me in and helped me when I was bruised and bleeding , then my dad he was the one who called me let me know he's done so much for me and .,,

" you like him" Courtney said

" no I do not I care about him, I've knows josh's my full life and mason what a nearly two weeks?" I grabbed a cigarette and opened my bedroom window I sat on windowsill and inhaled the smoke , weird something I would have never been able to do before but no one was here now

" I mean I get it , but ally josh doesn't look at you just as a fiend , I don't agree with how mason went about it but I can see why he would be annoyed I mean your always playing ,touching  it's like brother and sister except he wants to bone you can I ask you something?" She played with her moon necklace glancing at me

" go ahead"

" if mason wasn't in the picture and al this was going on would you have kissed josh back? I mean can you honestly say there's nothing there at all, I just always thought you two would end up together" she shrugged her shoulders

Would I? If masons wasn't in the picture and everything that was going on would I have clung to josh more?
But he has his on and off again thing with Lauren I don't know

" I honestly don't know the awnser to that " I admitted it was the truth I never looked at josh's that way before but maybe I would have , but for the wrong reasons josh was safe he was home he was the one piece of normality in my life that hadn't changed he was still here along with Courtney they where my family
What I felt with josh was comfortable safe
Mason was exciting even the thought of him could send my pulse racing I had never wanted to give myself to someone as much in my life but I didn't know him but at the same time I couldn't imagine not being with him now there was something about him

" well what you gonna do? I mean with everything you can't stay here by yourself especially if that creep tommy b or d whatever the hell his name is out to get your dad and I mean this in the nicest way possible but who knows if he even gave him the money , Ally look i have always let you deal with your own situations with your mom and Brandon but when josh called and i saw you in that state" her voice cracked as tears fell down her face

" I felt so guilty if I had of told someone anyone then maybe this wouldn't of happened to you , please for me can you either stay at mine or josh's somewhere I know your gonna be safe you can't do everything on your own "she sniffled wiping away the tears

"Courtney I should of never brought you into this not for one second did I think about how it would make you feel keeping it a secret and I'm glad you did , okay I'll stay with you or you can stay here , things with josh's are weird just now I don't wanna make it anymore weirder"

I was about to hug her before I heard pounding on my front door
Great what now

" I'll get it you sit and rest " Courtney smiled

What had she done

I heard kade voice from downstairs dragging my ass off the bed I headed down stairs to see what was going on kade had a pack of beers and three hampers a and shit ton of Cheetos and grape soda

" ally cat!" He beamed hugging me gently
" call me kade fucking klaus!" He laughed

" kade whats all this?" I asked I picked up the first big hamper it was full of all my favourite things, my coconut and vanilla body lotion, along with the sprays and face creams  a moon shaped necklace the exact same as Courtney's with my name on it , flaming hot Cheetos , more bottle of my favourite lotions along with a Rose coloured Lace Cup Satin Night Dress there was another lacy things i glanced at her she winked
Only Courtney

Kades was the funniest it was a build s bear but it was a cat the the name said
Ally cat on it plus a t shirt with
With with his nickname for me
The last was from Hannah a smile came across my face
It was full of face masks and some candles , nail polishes and a friendship bracelet made out of the kit I got her last years
  also a invitation for a sleep over and Pajamma party 

My eyes burned
"What's all this for ?" My voice croaked with emotion

"We had it planned the day after you know everything with your mom just something to make you feel better then after today we thought you kinds needed a lift up" Courtney smiled

Even though I had no mom and dad I felt abounded but looking at kade and Courtney's face and the little hamper from Hannah and the laughs and smiled from kade
I had all the family I needed