Only you

Ally

Walking into masons and kades house I felt more Nervous than before
I knew rationally it was the best idea to stay with someone than no one I didn't admit but I was scared
Really scared
But mason? Now I didn't know the way he acted in front of josh was so cold and calculating I had never seen that side to him , but here I was again being drawn to him I could of walked away stayed at Courtney's or if worst came to worst I could of went to my uncle Nates I knew where he lived and he was outside of lake view I would be safe and I would of
Kept everyone safer but I hadn't spoken to him in years I didn't have his number I knew his address but apart of me wanted to be with mason even though I was still mad at him
The last couple of days had been insane first my mom then my dad and now tommy? I felt physically exhausted rubbing my temples I yawned Courtney grabbed my hand in hers

"If you want we can stay in the spare room together? I don't have to sleep with kade , we could have a girly night I brought my iPad plus I know kades Netflix's password" she smiled squeezing my hand another reason why I loved her , I had put her through enough I was sick of being everyone's liability

"Honest I'm fine Court really I think I'm gonna crash , I'm beat but tomorrow for definite?" I smiled hugging her goodbye I headed back to my lovely purple room with my cushioned bed I was exhausted

I carefully put down my bags as I walked back into the room I came face to face with Margaret she was busy changing the sheets I started to help her something I was just used to doing , my mom didn't do much I did everything having someone change my sheets felt unnatural

Her puffy cheeks flushed pink as I slid the the new fresh lilac swirled pillow case onto the pillow they smelled beautiful, the soft fabric felt even nicer it's wasn't my room but it felt so homely
Margaret's salt and pepper hair was piled high on top of her head into a neat bun , some free wisps were making there way out   as she huffed and puffed changing the sheets she did the inside out trick like me grabbing each corner she shook it until it was perfectly fitted I proceeded to help her button up the end or the duvet

" oh heavens child you bloomin! Scared me there , now now leave that you poor thing must still be hurting something awful shoo now don't lift a hand let them ribs heal I've changed the sheets , nice fresh set if only I could tackle mason and kades room it's a bloody mess " she huffed straightening the bed to perfection

"I don't mind , I'm not used to anyone making my bed feels kinda weird you , thank you ,you must be Margaret it's nice to finally meet you" I looked down at her she was only tiny with kind gentle eyes and rosey red lips

" its finally nice to meet you too your even more beautiful than mason had said Oh nonsense , the mess those two hooligans can make it's worse than having a pack of toddlers about ,there's fresh towels on the rail in the bathroom" she quickly whisked away the discarded sheets blowing a piece of stray hair out her face

"Anything else don't hesitate to call would you like some coffee or some tea and I mean proper tea not like the kind over here proper English tea  with some sugar , slice of toast or with a biscuit ?" She smiled I liked her instantly she had a warm bubbly presence about her

"That sounds nice but I'm not really hungry but thank you Margaret "

" please call me Maggie , it's what the other two call me except for kade he does has a filthy mouth wants washing out with soap , well I'm off to do the other rooms I'll pop back in a bit dear if you need anything " she smiled walking away with handfuls of sheets

Masons mom might have not been around much but Margaret seemed like the next best thing she closed the door as I began to unpack some of the things I had took with me I wasn't planning on staying long and i wanted to get a job I wasn't going to be my mother , I wasn't a free loader I had seen help wanted signs down at Delilah's diner I had thought about it since my dad....John had left my mom was getting wasted and wasted and more unhinged each day she hadn't been back to work my baby sitting jobs I did for Mr and Mrs Stone over the years wasn't gonna cut it , I was on my own I had to make some sort of money sighing I unpacked my case into the double set of drawers folding my clothes away I realised how little belonging I had it's not like my mother didn't have the means to fund my clothing I just hated going shopping with her very chance she got to belittle me she would I had a few nice things that I had never been worn stuff we had bought together when she wasn't so bad my hands traced over the beautiful red dress we had bought together that was my last happy memory before she completely went off the rails I don't know what happened but something snapped in her and she never really came back sighing I folded the rest of my clothes away pushing the memory's out my head I took the photo of Brandon josh Courtney and I all lauging and set on top the the drawers along with some Photos of me and Courtney at Halloween and of course the day my dad ...John surprised me with Lola
I looked down at the picture my face was so happy so full of light I looked healthy
Nothing compared to what I looked like now
I set down two of my candles on the dresser that Hannah had gotten me pleased with myself I hoped Margaret or Maggie Should I say didn't mind, it felt more homely my last touch was my dream catcher It hadn't worked it was supposed to keep bad dreams away but not knowing it wasn't there made me feel like it was a invitation for my demons to fall into my dreams I hung it just above one of the posters on the bed wincing as I did, I had done  way to much today I glanced at the baskets from court kade and Hannah I would deal with them tomorrow I was well and officially exhausted I peeled my jeans off and folded them on top of my case , the tank was easy enough it would slide down without me having to lift my arms as much I had two drinks with Courtney before the whole Incident so I knew I couldn't take my medication