I am going through such an emotional stress. No professionals involved yet, so I wouldn't know the severity of my mental state. Instead of slashing my own wrist or hanging myself in the ceiling, I decided to write poems. I have also started studyin...
Pain in the past made me build a great wall A wall so sturdy, so thick, so tall Repulsion to guys, that's my self-defense I've done nothing but to protect my weak self in any sense.
I met guys whom I thought were already enough Just to realize that they're nothing but a big fat bluff I felt like im pretty surrounded by predators I almost give up that I will find my life's greatest metaphor.
Then you came just like high tide You conquered my wall that I protected for a long time You looked into my soul I trapped in my castle You saved me from misery and life's worst hustle.
You made me feel like it's always summer I felt the heat when I'm with you You made my heart tumble over I felt so crazy just by looking at you.
Nobody said how beautiful I am Dream is what it seemed when you said it like a big wham So there I thought I won the lottery That those scintillating words are nothing like flattery.
I really thought you were the one I really hoped I found the right one It just hurts when you said I'm not yet the one That you're still out there looking for your right one.
But you see, I can't get mad at you In the past I already built a wall to get rid of you I am furious at the moment at myself for this I let my guard down turning myself defenseless.
I don't know why but maybe I just like you a lot And never have I ever felt something like that It's true, a foolish move this may seem But I'm taking control of my lucid dream.
------ May 17, 2019 Started: 5:13 am Finished: 5:24 am Lying in my bed
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