LOOK AFTER YOU

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ATTENTION
Just a heads up, this chapter gets pretty steamy towards the end. If you don't want to read that it's fine. I'll indicate by placing three bold ellipsis "•••" where the PG stuff begins.
Enjoy.
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When we reached home, it took me a while to notice. I smiled at Kylian softly before opening the door and walking bare foot inside. I made my way up to my room and locked the door behind me.

I slid down to the floor and let the tears fall.

When the words had left my mouth I was so sure. I know it was the truth and in the moment it felt right to say them. But now that they were out in the open and I couldn't take them back if I tried I felt scared.

I was so afraid, because this was so perfect and so very fairy tale that I was scared it was gonna be ripped from me. I was afraid that this was a sick joke that was being played on me. I could hear Kylian knocking on my door, and I chocked back a sob that rocked my body, His knock became more frantic until he was basically pounding on the door demanding I let him down. I cried until his knock died down to just his voice, then that too faded until I was alone again.

I convinced myself that this was it.

The ending, because nothing this good happened to people like me. Who had hurt for so long that bonding with people became difficult and keeping the bonds alive was even more taxing. I was so used to people leaving when I got difficult. Nobody ever passed the test.

Nobody.

I gathered myself from the floor, my dress was crumbled and my heart hurt, I felt empty. I padded to the bathroom and washed my face. Staring at myself in the mirror. A thought crossed my mind that made the tears slip down my face again.

Why is it that nobody stays?

I wiped my tears angrily, convincing myself that this was no different from the other times. People leave and I get over it.

I washed my face again, taking in my red eyes, I wiped my face clean and took a deep breath. I was going to be okay, I walked back into my room, searching for a water bottle, I drained it and looked around searching for another. My throat felt dry and I felt like my crying had drained all the liquid from my cells.

I sighed heading towards the door, I opened it intent on going quietly downstairs to go get a water bottle and slip back into my room.

I gasped.

He was sitting outside my door.

His tie was wrapped around his fist his hair messy from where he grabbed it on both sides, when he looked up my heart fluttered in that familiar way that I had spent the last hour convincing myself I was never going to feel again.

His eyes were red rimmed, he scrambled up to his feet, and took a step towards me before hesitating. I was still trying to convince myself that he wasn't real. He hadn't stayed. He closed the distance between us and pulled me into his chest hugging me so tight that I could feel all the pieces I had hacked off my heart come back together.

"Don't you ever fucking do that again do you hear me." He said his voice cracking, I nodded.

"You're still here." I said softly.

He pulled back from me gripping my face so I was looking directly in my eyes.

"I'm never leaving you. Ever and I don't care what you think or try to tell yourself. This is real, I am real and I'm in love with you and nothing you do or say can changed that... Ever." He said looking into my eyes with his intense stare, the one that left absolutely no room for argument.