Beautifully Broken

14

Today's the day that we go on a group trip out of the ward.

We usually go to a the park and spend the day there having a picnic and doing outdoor activities.

The bus ride was fairly short, I stood in the back on the bus lost in my thoughts looking out of the window and just imagining what it will feel like when I can finally be free.

The first place I wanted to go was the beach.

I remember the times me and mom would go when the world got to loud and hectic for her. We would spend hours just sitting in the sand, watching the waves crash in and hear the seagulls and feel the sun kissing our skin.

I missed that.

I missed her.

Her anniversary of her death was coming up and I knew it because my body was like clock work, I was much more emotional and my temper was harder to control than usual. The sadness was something I didn't care to hide during these times.

Marble knew too but this year was different, after the whole Miles situation she kept her distance from me and even asked to be switched. I was now in my room alone, till someone came but as of now I was alone.

Carlos, I haven't seen him since the whole altercation as well and I think he was moved to a different facility.

Miles, he went back to ignoring me and getting attention from others. Him and Marble seemed to be okay, she was back to swooning over her like nothing ever happened and he still ignored her but I wondered if they went back to their past secret activities.

Quickly I shook that thought out of my mind and I closed my eyes, trying to get out of my own thoughts.

I went from thinking of Miles and marble to my mom.

Wishing I could just talk to her about all these feelings I'm feeling and hating that I couldn't or would never be able too.

I could see her beautiful face, her soft smile, her eyes always held some type of hurt but she always had a sparkle when she saw me. I miss her hugs, our laughter combined at the most random times for the most random things.

I felt the unwanted tears stroll down my cheeks.

Before I could slap them away, I felt his touch caress My cheek catching the tears in the pad of his thumb.

I quickly opened my eyes, raised and my brows furrowed.

I grew stiff, our eyes linking.

Miles.

His blue eyes looked like the ocean and I could see the concern all over his face.

"I'm sorry Evie."

Was all he said, still wiping the tears.

I slowly moved away from his touch and wiped away the tears and his touch of my face.

"For what Miles? There's nothing to apologize about." I spoke quickly turning my eyes away from
Him.

"Your mom. I never knew she wasn't here, I'm sorry I gave you so much shit about killing your self for attention. I — "

Before he could finish I put my hand up to stop him.

"Don't." I silently pleaded with him, pressing my head against the window.

He let out a low sigh and he pressed his back against the seat.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" He asked sounding kind of hurt and scared.