Beautifully Broken

24

It's been a week, nobody has heard anything when it comes to Miles. Everyone is acting like nothing happened out of the normal.

This is Miles, nothing new. That's all everyone says when I ask.

But to me it isn't Miles, not my Miles. I need to make sure he's okay, anything.

I haven't been able to eat, sleep nothing I loved mattered anymore. I just looked out the window as a zombie, I wasn't reading, writing, painting nothing.

Group therapy was the same cycle, I would come in and out of different moments, never being able to pay long enough attention to care.

"Evie, can we talk?" Ms. Fox stopped me before I could walk past with the rest of the group.

I hesitated, I didn't want to talk to her, I didn't want to talk to anyone unless they had information about Miles.

"I just wanna go to the break room." I mumbled, holding my head down and fidgeting with my fingers under the sleeves of my sweater.

"It'll only be a moment. Please." She sat on the corner of her desk.

I faced her, nodding my head.

She cleared her throat.

"How are you feeling? How have you been sleeping? The new medication working okay for you?" She asked with such concern in her tone but I didn't care to feed into her doctor caring shit.

"I'm okay, I sleep fine, and the medication is working. No crazy thoughts." I spoke quickly, almost to quickly.

She stood up, making me take a few steps back.

"You sure? You seem jumpy." She spoke again softly.

"Just tired today, my room gets really cold at night, hard to stay asleep."

"I'll have on of the maintenance people check your radiator out. Is that all that is bothering you?" She questioned again.

I nodded looking at her and smiling. "Yes. Thank you. Can i go now please?"

She nodded towards the door with a smile.

I turned and headed towards the door at light speed.

"He's okay Evie." I heard her say, making me stop in my tracks so quickly I jerked forward a bit.

Turning to face her, "What?" My voice was trembling instantly.

"Miles. He's doing okay. I shouldn't be telling you this but I know how much you care for him, you guys both care for one another. They're moving him soon though." She said with sadness in her eyes as she looked at the ground and pulled her loose strand of hair behind her ear. It made her look innocent, shy even.

"What?" Was all I could say again.

"They're transporting him to a more higher facility." She said it again.

My heart didn't stop, it began to speed uncontrollably like it might just jump out of my chest at any moment, my nerves driving at high speed through my body using it as it's track. I felt hot, sweaty and cold at the same time. My eyes began to burn like if they were being smothered by some type of smoke, my throat was closing.

"No— when!" I loudly said.

"In two days. I'm sorry Evie." Ms.Fox said.

"Can..can I see him? Please?" I begged not even caring anymore that it was against the rules.

I couldn't lose him without seeing him.

She cleared her throat, walking the front of her desk.

"He should be let out to retrieve his belongs. You never heard anything from me." She spoke softly and lowly.

"Why are you telling me?" I asked now confused. She could lose her job.

"I know what it feels like to have the person you love ripped away from you with no warning. I don't think you guys deserve that. Go." She looked at me tears in her eyes but they never fell, as she waved for me to go away.

I began running down the hall, my feet hitting the ground like a comet falling from the sky at a billion speeds heading to earth. The tears blinding me, as my breathing got shallow and I headed towards the break room. I swung through the doors, causing eyes to stare at me but I didn't care. I scanned the room looking for those familiar blue eyes.

Nothing.

I turned and headed back out, I had to think where would he be?

My head was racing, my mind was already gone to another planet. I pressed my fingers to my temple closing my eyes trying to concentrate.

Where could you be Miles?
I know your not in your room.
Where are you?

"Evie." The sound of his voice bringing me out of the spiraling chaos I was brewing.

I opened my eyes, following his voice.

There he stood.

Gorgeous as I remembered, damaged as I loved him.

Dressed in all black, his hair a tousled mess, his eyes the brightest of blues but filled with so much behind them.

I felt my feet leave the ground and I felt the wind in my hair as I rushed towards him and straight into his chest not caring that we were out in the open.

"Miles." I whispered with tears streaming down my face once our bodies collided.

He held me in his arms, right like never before. He inhaled my hair, he squeezed me tight into him.

"Hi baby." He laughed lowly.

The sound of his laugh was a light in my chest. I wanted to hear it forever.

"Your leaving me." I mumbled as I buried my head into his chest more, trying to control the sobbing that was aching to come out.

"Not in this life babe." He kissed my forehead. "I have a plan, but I need you to be ready for anything to happen." He whispered.

I looked up at him.

Browns versus blue.

"Anything." I said with a small smile.

He returned the smile.

"Tonight. Just know when everything starts happening no matter what I need you to run for the exit don't stop running till your past the parking lot and outside those gates. I'll be waiting for you there."

"What are you going to do Miles?" I asked fear suddenly rippling though me.

"Whatever it takes for us to be together Evie. Are you in?" His eyes dead serious.

"I'm in." I said unaware to what I was just agreeing too.

Little did I know that this would change my life forever.