blood, sweat and TEARS

Sixteen

JK (POV)

I turn away so fast that I bump into to Tae. I cant even look at him. I run out of the building not paying attention to anything that I am doing.

I don't know if people recognize me, don't care. I'm so upset I should have told him sooner. Should have let him know how much that I love him.

I hate him, no I dont, I hate Shawn! No I don't hate him either, but I do hate myself, I should have been stronger when Jimin told me how he felt about me. Should have let him know right then how much I loved him.

I am not paying attention to anything around me. That's when I hear the honk,  When I turn to the lights. I'm frozen. I'm going to die. I close my eyes preparing for the impact.

I fill a force to my chest sending me to the concrete. I open my eyes, shocked that I am still here. I don't know what happend. I release a sigh of relief, but it's to soon. When I start to hear the screaming. "He's dead! He's dead! A women shouts, shes must be the driver of the car. "Someone call an ambulance!" Hurry!" I'm on my feet in an instant running to them to try and help whoever just saved my life.

I'm on my knees about to start giving my hero CPR, when I recognize him. The scream erupts out of me involuntarily. I start CPR, I cant, wont let him die.

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Jimin (POV)

I've lost track of all time. Shawn has almost wiped the pain from tonight away. "You know that I leave tomorrow right?" I say to him placing my hand on his cheek and he leans into it.

"Your voice is cute I wouldn't mind long phone calls." He says sweetly, he's almost enough I think. If i could stay here, be with him longer he might be enough, he might be able to wash the love I have for Kookie away.

"Hey," he says gently lifting my face so I am looking at him. He must see the doubts that are running through my mind. "Let's try Jimin, please." My chest clenches at his pleading tone. "Please don't end this just because the world says it can't work."

He moves his hand up and down my arm, and all I can think of is the electricity I get with a quick brush from Kookie. I hurry and clear my mind of Kookie. Tae was right I need to move on.

I look into Shawn's eyes, he is looking at me so desperately. "Okay, let's try." He releases a giant sigh, before pulling me into his chest.

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I don't know how long I have been wrapped in Shawn's arms. But eventually we are interrupted by Yoongi. The smile I had on my face falls away when I notice the tears in his eyes. He doesn't cry.

I run to him brushing tears away. He pulls me into him. "What's wrong?" He releases a gasp. "Jimin, we need to go." He says smoothing the back of my hair.

"Go where? What's wrong?" I feel my breaths get quicker. He pulls back from me. "Jimin, Tae is hurt."

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The ride to the hospital fills like a million  years. I should be with him. What if it's to late. my face is wet with  tears, I didn't know that my body could lose this much water.

"Jimin, it's going to be okay, okay?" I know that he is trying to keep it together for me. Know that he wants to break down just as much as I am.
Hes holding me so tight, I'm afraid without his grip I  would fall completely apart. "I have to be there Yoongi, he needs me."

"Shhh, I know. We will be there soon, and until then everyone else is there." They were all together after the concert heard right away what happend outside of the stadium. Yoongi got tasked with finding me. I should have been with them. "Joon would have called me if they had any new news."

What even happened? I ask him. He shrugs. " All we know is that. He was hit by a car. Jungkook got to him first, that's all we know."

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The hospital is busy, and we have no idea where to go. I can't even focus right now, "were looking for the emergency waiting area." Yoongi asks one of the nurses passing by. I have never been so grateful for him then I am right now. Yoongi leads me down the hall. Where we come to the most heartwrenching scene I have ever encountered.

All of my brothers broken, barely keeping each other together. They all sit in a group together in the corner. J-Hope lays on Jins lap, Jin gently brushing hair from swollen eyes. All of them have clearly been crying, but the hardest to look at is Kookie, who still cant keep his tears from falling, he rocks back and forth, Joon stroking his back trying in vain to get him under control. My eyes catch his clothes, and hands causing my breaths to cease because they are still coated in Taes blood.

Jin catches me standing there, and his lip quivers, but he keeps him self together, Yoongi leads me towards them and I take a seat next to Jin who quickly wraps his arm around me pulling me to his chest. Where I promptly lose control again.

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JK (POV)

I had never thought about how much blood our bodies hold. There was so much of it. And Tae he was so small, so skinny it wasn't possible for there to be that much blood.

I can't stop looking at my blood coated hands, cant stop thinking of a lifeless Tae under me as I begged, and pleaded him back to life. Tae was the embodiment of life, if you looked at him, he was always so alive. The blank look on his face, will forever haunt my nightmares. I need to so his face alive again, need to know that I didn't kill him.

I can't wash the blood from me yet, cant wash the last of his life from me like it is nothing. It should be me, I was the one so careless to not look where I was going.

I glance up when Yoongi and Jimin walk in. The tears streaking there faces adding depth to my guilt. I can't meet Jimins eyes, when he finds out he will never forgive me.

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Jimins (POV)

Jin has fallen asleep on my shoulder. I'm grateful that he has found a moment of peace.

The doctor walks in and Joon stands up to speak to him. Fear swells through me. I feel someone grab my wrist and look down to see Hobie looking at me, as he gives me a squeeze and a nod. Whatever it is, I have them, my family.

Joon puts his hands to his face. Wiping away some tears. He turns  walking back to us. I nudge Jin awake.  

"Surgery went well." He says, gasping as if he can finaly show emotion now that we know that he is alive. Yoongi goes to him pulling him into his chest. After a few minutes they move apart. Yoongi still standing next to him in case he needs support. He looks down to Jungkook who has his arms folded around himself in comfort. "The doctor said that if it weren't for you Jungkook he would have died on scene." Jungkook just nods, reaching up to his face to wipe away tears.

"He is alive, but he might not wake up for awhile, but let's hope it all works out, okay. We can go in two at a time to see him, who wants to come with me?" I'm ready to jump up, but before I can Jungkook speaks up. "I need to see him." Joon nods and they disappear down the hallway.

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A/N

Ohhh heavy! Next chapter soon!