blood, sweat and TEARS

Thirty-Eight

JK (POV)

"So.... tell me more about your boy." Grey nudges my shoulder as we walk the sunny streets. It's weird talking about him like this, not worrying about being judged or being thought of as disgusting for being so in love with him.

"What do you want to know?" I ask him, I can't look at him I'm so afraid he isn't real. That someone new, who knows so little about me actually wants to know about my life. "How long?"

"Wh-what do you mean?" I ask suspecting that I know exactly what he is asking. "Oh come on Kook how long have you been head over heels for him?" This question is so complicated, because honestly I don't know. Is it weird if I said it was the first time he smiled at me, the first time I caught him still practicing hours after the rest of us has stopped, or the first time I saw him hold himself back in, favor of letting someone else shine. My memories they all belong to Jimin, every inch of me has belonged to him the moment my eyes first met his. "I....."

"Long time. Huh?" He pushes my shoulder. "So tell me then, why aren't you in coupled bliss right now?" My heart stills, do I tell him, to make real friends you need to open up, but isn't a fake friend better then none? I could tell him and he could be disgusted, he could excuse himself from my life forever.... but, maybe that would be best if I let myself really care about him and then told him, it would be the same result with more pain.

So, I bite the bullet, I let my truth spill out of my soul and trickle out of my mouth. It comes out calmer then before, and by the end I'm more relieved, to have told a soul, with no connection to the, pain of the past month and a half.

When I'm finished he releases a mouth full of air, as if he is expelling the weight I just pushed on to him. He wraps his arm around my shoulders and leads me to a bench where he sits and throws his empty coffee cup away.

"Well Kook this has definitely been an eventful few weeks for you." I just look down at my entwined hands, I cant look at him because whatever he says next either good or bad will definitely make me cry if I look at him.

" I get why you tried to push Jimin away Kook, I mean I even see why you're doing it now."

"I'm not pushing him away he asked for space." He looks at me, giving me a look of denial.

" space doesn't, have to mean being avoidance Kook." He looks at me and I can see it in his eyes hes upset with me. "You pushed him away Kook, first when he came out to you, and even farther away when Tae was hurt. You hurt him, in a way broke him." I feel the tears start to burn my eyes. "I don't want you to think I'm putting what happend to Taeyhyung on you, he sounds like a great man who would have done it for anyone, and...." he grabs my head turning it toward him. "It could have happend to anyone Kook." He waits tell I nod before continuing. "What happened with Jimin, well he could have used you being there, but you were both dealing with a lot and he may have reacted the same way even if you were by his side the whole time." I let his words sink in, the boys they can tell me all day that it's not my fault, but hearing it from this near stranger, well maybe they weren't lying.

"What you did and said to Jimin did hurt him though. Jimin may have asked for space Kook, but it was space that you already created."

I let myself fall back on the bench, tears streaming down my face. I may have not caused all the pain, but I have caused a portion of Jimins. And my own....

"So, what should I do now?"

"Well Kook, I can see this going one of two ways. The space is there, it's done." I feel my heart sink. "But you can forget, you can avoid, you can move forward, distance yourself farther. Hell, I'm here when your ready." He winks at me and I cant help but smile a tiny bit. "Or you can, comfront it, face it, travel the distance you have made back to him, that's the harder choice though Kook, but from what you tell me about him he's worth it. And so are you." He pulled me into a side hug.

"Stop running from him Kook, and I promise he will be waiting at the same place you left him."

I'm full on sobbing now, into the crook of his neck. I'm so glad I told him the truth.

"Can I tell you something Grey?" He shrugs. "You may not think so, but your worth it too."

"Thanks Kook."

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JIMIN (POV)

I wake up in a pile of UNO cards. I don't even know where they came from. I have a headache, but that makes sense when I turn to the night stand and there are three empty champagne bottles. And a note.

Hey Jiminie!

Sorry I wasn't here when you and Tae woke up! I had to get to work. It was great meeting Tae he is such a petty. I would have cleaned up the game, but I didn't want to wake you plus you started the UNO card fight so I find it only fitting that you clean it up. Also in case you don't remember, don't start a war you can't finish! See you tonight at group!! Love you!

Love, Beck 🖤

I fall back on to the bed, feeling the Uno cards stick to me. Ugh I need coffee. As if summoned by that thought there is a knock at the door. For once I'm glad he isn't going to be there. I don't know how I'm going to face him at practice. I can't worry about that now, coffee first, depression later.

I open the door and am stunned. There is Kook holding three cups.

"Hey." He says, and I can't think or anything better so I just repeat it back to him.

"So I was wondering...." he moves his hand up to scratch the back of his neck, forgetting he has a cup of coffee in it.

"Would, you want to go for a walk with me?"

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