blood, sweat and TEARS

Thirty-three

Jk (POV)

The hospital is surrounded with little balls of light. There wasn't hiding Jimins accidents from Army. They surround the hospital like a shield, and Serendipity is their battle cry. We can't leave like we did when we visited Tae, so they gave us a room next to Jimin's.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" Jin sits down in the chair next to me in front of the window. We only pull the curtain enough to peak out into the night. "He would love it." I say sitting back and letting the curtain fall back into place. "He's so loved." I say letting my eyes close before they can tear up again. "I hope he knows." I feel Jin's hand grip my shoulder. "He knows Kook." My eyes flutter open and it feels like he is staring right through me, eyes filled with so much love and concern. " what do you mean?" I ask sitting up a little stranger. "He knows, even if he doesn't know he knows. You know?"

"It's pretty clear how much he's loved." I say gesturing toward the window. He just gives me a knowing.  look, "yes well, you know what I mean Kook." He gives me a wink. My heart speeds, how can he know? Does he actually know? He must see me freaking out. Maybe he can read my mind. "Oh come on Kook, it would be impossible not to see it. Every glance, you both try and hide. Every light touch." I look down at my hands lying in my lap.  Jin grabs them and my eyes meet his once again. "You don't have to hide it any more Kook, you or Jimin. It's time to be honest to each other and yourself." My heart tightens. Feel the stitches starting to burst from my newly healing heart, and I know what needs to happen. Before I can try and start over with Jimin, before we can all start to heal completely I need to be honest with everyone. "Jin?" He squeezes my hand  again. "Can you get the boys, I need to tell you guys something." He nods and stands I feel light tears start to fall, as the secret I have been so scared to tell for months prepares to sleep out. I hear the door start to creak open. "Jin," I say softly I'm afraid he hasn't heard me. "Yeah kook?"

"W-will you be here, in the end. Even if you hate me?" I see the concern and shock on his face. "Of course I promise, but I could never hate you." Then he leaves, and I hope he can keep his promise.

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The boys all sit on one of the beds next to me. Except Tae who knows what I have to say and is watching over Jimin in the other room. Joon sits in the chair next to me, gripping my hand in support. I look from Yoongi, to Hobi to Jin. All there with nothing but support on their faces. I try to take in their loving faces just in case this is the last time they look at me with them. Joon nods his head at me urging me to start.

"I don't even know how to start." Even that has me tearing up. "Take your time Kook, were here for you." Hobi says bright smile on his face. "I guess, I should start by saying that I-I'm in love with Jimin." For some reason those words leaving my mouth take a million pounds along with them. "Well it's about time." Yoongi says, arms folded, not even Bothering to looked shocked. "Have you been together this whole time?" Hobi asks excitedly. "Umm, no." I'm surprised by their reactions l. "See I told you Hope. You owe me 50 bucks." Yoongi says taking a somewhat sadder Hobi's hand and pulling him back to a sitting position. "Hey, you guys didn't tell me about this wager." Jin speaks up. "Yeah well you would have lost anyway." Yoongi responds. Jin looks away arms folded, "you don't know that." He says under his breath. There is so much more to this confession, but I don't know how to get their attention back. I look at Joon still gripping my hand. He nods "boys there is more if you would settle down." They instantly fall back into their supportive modes.

"When Jimind was with Shawn...." even talking about how I acted is hard. Thinking of how I treated Jimin. "I-I got really jealous. And well I walked in on them." I'm interrupted by Hobi's gasp. He is so dramatic he even covered his mouth. "They were just kissing, but I got really upset, I couldn't be around It and i need to get out of there. I bumped into Tae in the hallway, and he must of followed me. I wasn't paying attention and." I'm talking so fast, I just need this to be over. "I didn't even know I was in the street. I didn't see the car, not until it was about to hit me. Tae pushed me out of the way, but it hit him instead." Once it's the words are out, I can see them floating around the boys as they try and capture each word I had just said taking them in one at a time. "Everything we have been through. It's my fault I almost killed Tae, and now I've almost killed Jimin. Will you ever be able to forgive me?" I feel giant tears hit my hands, I don't even remember when I started to sob.

I hear the boys begin to stir, I'm not ready to see their faces, not prepared yet to see their eyes. Joon let's go of my hand and for a brief second I fear he as decided to abandon me two. Two arms suddenly pull me up into them. "Not Forgiven, Kook." Yoongi says into my ear gripping me tighter then he ever has before. "You would have had to do something wrong for me to forgive you, and if you had done something wrong, you wouldn't need to even ask." He backs from me and before I can even take a breath I'm wrapped in another pair if arms. "Any of us would die for you kook." Hobi says. "It doesn't surprise me that Tae nearly did." He backs up a little wiping tears from my eyes."I only wish you would have told us so we could have been here for you." When he backs away I look at Jin. The moment our eyes meet he smiles, and so much of my pain is washed away. He pulls me into a hug. "I told you I could never hate you." He pulls away to soon with a ruffle of my hair.

Now I turn to Joon standing their with proof of past tears still on his face. "I told you Kook we are all here for you." Before I can walk over to him the door creaks open. Tae peaks in still in his chair. His smile reminding me that no matter how dark the world has been the last month, he is still here and that makes it so much brighter. "Jimin's awake." Is all he says and I finally start to believe that this nightmare might end.

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A/N

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