blood, sweat and TEARS

Thirty-five

Jimin (POV)

I look at the plate of food sat in front of me. I don't remember the last time that I ate and if I try and go back in my head to the last time I know that I will be ashamed of myself. I shove a spoonful of cold potatoes  into my mouth, it's not the best thing I have ever tasted, but it's good enough i take in the next bite once again trying to focus on the taste of the food instead of how much work I'll have to do to make up for each bite.

Before I know it the food on the plate is basically gone, and I can't stop the smile that comes to my face for making it past this first hurtle in my recovery. It might not be easy I'm going to this.

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JK (POV)

He seems happier, and that makes me happier him and Tae are both out of the hospital, and I can't stop thanking God for letting me keep them both. We have a month before our next concert once again here in L.A. There was talk about us going home, but the doctors want Tae, and Jimin to recover fully here. So a whole nother month here. Where so much bad will always fog the streets. I only hope that in that time we can make a few good memories here.

"Jimin please, take it easy it's your first day back." Joon lectures Jimin at the end of practicing Boy With Love. "What you want me to, spend my first day back sitting in a chair like some slacker?"
"Hey that's not fair!" We all turn to Tae still stuck in the wheelchair. "Can we please make him sit in a chair this practice Joonie?" Jin asks with puppy dog eyes. I can see the contemplation in his eyes. I want to agree with Jin make Jimin sit in a chair out of harm. But i can't Jimin needs space from me and I cant get him angrier at me by taking away dancing even if it is just for an afternoon.
Jimin is pleading with his eyes to Joon, who finally comes to his conclusion. " his doctors say there is no problem with him dancing as long as is doing what he is supposed to." It's not a question so why is Joon looking to Jimin for a response, he gives a quick nod. "Okay then everyone let's let's get back to work. Jimin don't let me catch you over working or I'll send you back to the hotel."
"Wouldn't dream of it Joonie." He says as he hops back into place. It's none of my business I know that, but I cant stop guessing at what that exchange between Joon and Jimin, I cant focus on anything other then that for the rest of practice, but I guess I'll just have to wait for Jimin to come to me.

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Jimin (PPV)

I don't want to go. I mean I really, really don't want to go. That's all I can think about on the ride. "It will be okay Jimin." Joon knocks me out of my trance. I give him a smile and head nod. I didn't want him to come, I mean I'm glad he is here, but it would have been easier to ditch out on this if he didn't force his way into the car with me, but I guess that's why he insisted so strongly.

It's not that I don't want help I do, i want to be healthy, and strong. But I dont want to sit in a circle and talk about why I choose not to eat. I dont want to sit across from a therapist and find out why an empty stomach makes me feel more whole. One month, that's what I promised and what I'll give, and if it helps, well then I guess that would be great. My heart speeds up when we pull up to the hospital, there is still such unease around this building. Joon squeezes my shoulder, "you'll do great and I'll be right out here when your done."

"Thanks Joon." And with one more deep breath I step out of the car and head into the unknown.

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A/N

Sorry this chapter was so short, and sorry I haven't updated in a bit it's been a busy month! Hope you enjoyed and I will be updating more regularly soon! Happy holidays!