blood, sweat and TEARS

Twenty-Six

Jungkook(POV)

He could be asleep, if it weren't for the tubes that are breathing  for him. He looks at peace, as his chest expands and deflates. We all sit quietly as we wait for Joon, and Jimin to come back. none of us want them to, because then it will start. the goodbyes, the ending of Tae's pain and only the beginning of ours. "Do you- do you think that they...." Hobi pauses, "Do you think that they brought Tannie?" My heart clenches, squeezing out tears that I had long thought dried up. Yoongi squeezes him into his side, "I hope so, he would love that." 

The door begins to open and I feel my breath hitch, I chance a look and am instantly relived that it is just a nurse. "i'll just be a moment." she says smiling, I can see past her expression she knows what is going to happen later, how can she smile at us, acting like we aren't sitting with our friend, who is already dead. She is gone quickly leaving us in the quite once again, the only sound is the soft snores that Jin releases, next to Tae, hand clasped tight in his. 

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I feel myself drifting off slowly when I hear the door creak open, I squeeze my eyes tight not wanting it to be time yet. Maybe if i squeeze tight enough I'll wake up from the nightmare I have been living for two weeks, maybe i'll wake up and Jimin will be kissing Shawn, and this time I will embrace it, i'll run into Tae in the hallway and we will go and get a coffee together, if I squeeze tighter, hope louder, I can bring him back. I open my eyes, to Jimin, standing next to me. he nods to me, and the hopeless expression on his face tells me that, I didn't wake up from the nightmare, it's about to get a lot worse. 

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Jimin(POV)

I see Jungkook's heartbreak through his gaze. "where are the others?" Jin asks. "They are trying to get the hospital to let them bring Tannie in." I see them visably relax with the knowledge of the the little dog being here. "What now?" Hobi asks, he looks so, deflated, i've never seen him so void of light, all hope gone, I wonder if he will ever get that back. "I don't know, Joon will be up in a bit to tell us." looking at Tae makes me ill, I fill like I Might faint. I sit on the edge of his bed, trying to draw strength from what Joon told me in the car. I look at the rest of the boys, all so wrecked, I need to be strong for them, there will be time for breaking down later.
     
   We sit in thick tension, made worse by the quite."Do you think they need help?" Kookie asks suddenly, standing up quickly from his seat. Before he  can walk away I grab his hand firmly in mine. It stops him instantly as he he stares at our entwined hands. "They're fine Kook." His eyes meet mine for a second before he shifts them away with a quick nod of his head." He stands  in front of me for to long, before I realize that I'm still gripping his hand. He let go and walks quickly back to his seat, not taking his eyes from his hands in his lap. I push the heat that his proximity brought to me away, this is not the time to long for a boy who will never want me. The door clicks open, and we all don't bother to look assuming that it's Joon, and the Kim's; there if a familiar cough behind us, and I almost dread looking back. what is he doing here. "Jimin... can we... talk?" His voice so soft and sweet it almost sweeps away the memories of just a few days ago. 

"It's not the time Shawn." Yoongi says. my heart lights at the protection of him. "Jimin?" he says my name once again. I finally look back at him as beautiful as ever. "We kind of have a lot going on right now." I say my voice cracking half way through it. 

"I know, it will just be a minute. Let me be here for you." a laugh escapes me, and I feel instant regret, there is no room for humor today. "I'll be back in a moment guys." before I can walk any closer to Shawn I feel a familiar warmth as Jungkook grabs my hand. "Are you okay?" he asks so softly that I am the only one that can hear him, and it sends shivers through me; all I can do is nod as I reluctantly pull my hand from his grasp and follow Shawn out of the room.

It hurts to leave them, but the moment that I walk out the door, I feel as if I can breath again; as if seeing Tae struggle to inhale, caused me to do the same. Shawn is gently guiding my back, and it takes all my strength not to flinch away from him. he leads me to a corner in a hallway separate from Tae's room.

"What do you want? you shouldn't have come here." he gently smooths hair from my forehead. "Baby, i'm sorry." I flinch at the name, "i'm not your baby Shawn, we are done." I pull away from his touch. "I want to be here for you, don't you want me to be here for you." 

"No, I don't there is no space in that room for you, there never will be." 

"what is that supposed to mean? I'm not good enough to hang out with you and your "Group" you need more then just them." he tries to pull me to him again. "It means that everyone in that room, is family and you just aren't Shawn, you aren't right for me, and you aren't right for them."

"If this is about the other day Jimin, i'll stop it i'll be yours totally heart and soul. I am good for you, you know that, and who cares about them, if i'm right for you it doesn't matter how they feel."

"It does matter, because if there is one thing i'm sure of its that everyone in that room, no matter their condition, we are forever, and I don't ever want someone in my life who doesn't care how they feel." I turn my back trying to walk away from him, but he grabs my hand a completely  different set of feelings then when Kookie grabbed it pulling me to his chest. "They do like me Jimin, you know they do." he puts our foreheads together, as I try and pull away from him. "Shawn let me go." 

"Cant you see that we are perfect Jimin?" there is desperation in his voice now. "Shawn, please let me go." I practically scream he immediately covers my mouth with his, silencing my screams. all I can think is how this is over, no one can hear me. I'm about to resign myself let him take whatever he wants. in a moment i'm almost falling over with the rush as someone tares Shawn away from me shoving him against the wall. I'm so flustered that it takes me a second to recognize it as Jungkook. "How dare you touch him without his permission!" he is practically foaming at the mouth. "I'm sorry.....I..... I'm sorry." 

"your sorry? that's all you have to say? how about I touch you without your permission, will sorry be enough then?" I see his hand squeeze into a fist, as he prepares himself to punch Shawn. As much as a part of me wants to see this happen. I jump up grabbing his fist "Kook?" He doesn't even look at me just harsh breaths, "Jimin, let go."  I put my hand on his cheek guiding him to look at me. "kookie?"I say almost in a whisper, I see his eyes soften. "Tae wouldn't want this, think about him." He lets go of  Shawn's shirt "Leave." he doesn't even look at him. Shawn disappears quickly; and kook falls against me placing his forehead against me, and I feel whole again. 

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A/N

Thanks for reading! hope you are enjoying!
Kookie is such a hero in the chapter!! He is definently my euphoria! Happy Birthday Jeon Jungkook!!