blood, sweat and TEARS

Seven

JK (POV)

I should feel more sad, those are the only thoughts that are playing through my mind while I spend the last few hours with Ye, she sits in between my legs, she sketches in front of her. "Will you miss me?" she looks back at me, sweet smile on her face, expectantly. I quickly pull out one of my earphones. "Hmm?" I ask her she giggles sweetly rubbing her nose to mine. "I asked if you would miss me?" she places her head on my shoulder pulling one of my arms around her.

"Of course I will." I peck her on the top of her head. she gets back to her drawing, I lean my head on the wall behind me. watching her sweet strokes as she sketches a filed of flowers, She's sweet, its my favorite thing about her, I tap her on the shoulder, she turns back to me. Nose scrunched up, "What do you need now? I'm busy." She asks mock frustrated. 

"I wish you could come with me." her face erupts happily, "I wish I could to, Kookie!" she kisses me softly, "but, I can't, you know that."

"I know," I whisper, "But maybe, just for one show?" she shrugs, "I don't know we will have to see wont we." she says mysteriously.

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Jimin is fast asleep in his seat next to me, He is curled up, its amazing that he is small enough to do that.  I'm so consumed by his face that I'm late in noticing Tae looking at me. "You need to stop looking at him like that Kook."

"What are you talking about, I was just making sure that he was okay." I say settling into my seat and looking at the screen in front of me. "It doesn't matter what you were doing," He says a bit harshly, "You guys are good right now, he knows you feel nothing romantically for him, but if he catches you looking at him like that he might misinterpret things, and he is so content right now."I laugh a little, but if looks could kill, I would be six feet under from the glare that Tae is giving me. "this isn't a joke." he says solemnly "If you look at him like that, and he sees you he is going to get sad again," 

"he's never sad." I say in response. 

"You know that isn't true Kook." Past  memories of a broken Jimin flood my memories. "He won't be like that again, V." I say softly trying to hide the fear in my voice. 

"You don't know that," he says softly, "and if this time... if this time, he doesn't have you to talk to, i'm afraid of what can happen." 

"He'll always have me." I say defiantly.

"He might not always think that, especially if his problem is not being able to get over you."

"You think that he will?" fear runs through me, but also a sense of  relief that I can't explain.

"Only if you keep looking at him like that, it confuses him, it confuses me." I nod, closing my eyes like I am going to sleep, but I really lie awake for hours, thinking about what Tae told me.

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Jimin (POV)

The sun is bright when we land in California, i'm so tired, but the sun is my fuel. When we step out of the airport, I go and try and walk next to JK, but the moment I stand next to him, he runs off to stand next to Joon, giving me a cheeky smile. He jokes with me like this sometimes, i'm used to it, but this time it hurts a little more then usual. 

I'm feeling a little down when I someone runs up from behind and jumps on my back. "ahh, who is this?" 

"Ah- Jimin, carry me i'm to tired to walk." Jin says from my back. I laugh, "we only need to walk to the car." 

"that's to far." He nuzzles my neck so I carry him, to the car that is waiting for us, when we get there I drop him down and he climbs in, I catch JK in the back of the car glaring at me, when he sees me staring he looks out the window. a flash of anger hits me as I close the door probably a bit to hard. 

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We drop our things off at our hotel, the hotel room pairings are the same as when we are at home, the moment me and JK get to the room he drops his bag on one of the beds and walks to the door. "Where are you going?" I ask him. "i'm going to get something to eat before we have to go to the studio." 

I get excited, "great i'll come i'm starving!" I get off my bed, and walk toward him. 

"Actually," He places his hand on the back of his neck, "Its just going to be me and Joon." I feel my chest deflate and hide my sadness with a smile, "Oh, okay, I guess i'll go and check and see if Tae wants to go with me." He gives a quick nod, "Good, see you." he gives me a shadow of a smile before he leaves. 

I decide to lay in, bed i'm not that hungry anyway.

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JK (POV) 

I feel sick for what I said to Jimin, but I need advice, and besides Jimin, Joon is the only person that I trust completely in the world. We walk side by side on our way back from eating. he wraps a arm around my neck. "You've been quite today Kookie, is everything alright?" 

I give him the best smile that I can right now, "but he sees right through it."

"Seriously whats wrong?" I look at my feet, "I don't know...."

"what? tell me, you can tell me anything, you know that right?" I nod, "of course I do."

I don't know what to say, I don't even know what i'm trying to say. "Do you ever think that, we are all to close?" He looks at me confused, "What do you mean?"

"I mean, maybe I have gotten to close to Jimin and thats why he isn't taking this whole new relationship thing well." Its not the whole truth, but I don't think that it is my place to spill Jimin's secrets. 

"Listen Kookie, we are close, and bringing someone new into a family is always hard, Jimin will get used to it." I nod, I don't know how else to get the answers, that I need from him without giving away to much. "Joon, I think that I love you guys to much? I think I love him to much?" he pauses and I'm afraid of the words that have just escaped my mouth. he looks at me,  resting a hand on my shoulder, " You cant love someone to much Kookie." He looks me in the eyes, and I feel like it is only us here, on the street. 

"I'm going to ask you something and no matter the answer its okay, I love you, no matter what." I nod my head, "are you in love Jimin?" my heart races, and I turn away from him. "I-I don't know I don't think so." I run my hands through my hair, rambling, "it's okay JK, it's okay to not know."

"But i'm with Ye." 

"You haven't done anything wrong, Kookie." he pulls me into him stroking my hair. "Whoever you are, whoever you choose to be, whoever you choose to love, it will never be wrong Kookie, and you have time to be honest with yourself. And you owe none of us an explanation."

I breath out a sigh of relief, so happy that I talked to him.

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A/N

Thanks for reading! What do you think of Kookie's talk with Namjoon? Do you think he is ready to come clean about how he feels?