blood, sweat and TEARS

Twenty-nine

JK (POV)

It all happens so fast. Jimin falls to the stage, and my body reacts faster then my mind. I'm by his side, but he won't respond. I cant even register then the screams that are coming from the crowd. There drowned by the one escaping my own mouth.
Tears run down my face as I hold him to my chest. I can't stop saying his name as I rock him back and forth.
When the paramedics show up they try and take him from my arms. I can't let them take him.
"No!" I scream as I'm torn away from him. I'm pulled back stage, kicking and screaming. Whoever is pulling me falls to the their knees taking me with them. "Jungkook... kook, calm down." I keep trying to escape Jins grasp. His arms hold me tighter to him. "He can't, get the help he needs with you in the way. It's better for him if we are back her." I stop struggling letting myself be comforted by him. I watch as they put Jimin on a stretcher and start rolling him out. When I finally turn to Jin. I can see the flood of worry in his eyes.

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We all rush behind them to the ambulance. The paramedics look to us and as who Is going to ride with him. My body moves forward, but Jin holds me back, and just as quickly Joon steps into the back with him. The moment the doors close the ambulance is off.

It has barely moved when the rest of us react, turning around and heading to the car.

We sit in the back of the car. I can't look at them. All I can think about is Jimin. The car is quite, we haven't even had the chance to process Tae's loss. W-we cant lose them both. There is another part of this, I don't want to think about. I can't think about, but I can't stop.

"He will be okay." Jin interrupts my thoughts, squeezing my shoulder. I nod my head and finally raise my gaze to the boys. Who just like me, despite Jin's words. Know that the last time one of us went to the hospital, they never left again.
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We sit in the same waiting room. We watch the same door. I start to think that Namjoon will never come back and tell us what's happening. My breathing quickens, what if he is to afraid to tell us. Hope is pacing the room, the rest of us just sit there watching him. I want to force him to stand still, but I think he needs something do to. Suddenly he stops, our gaze all follow his, as Joon walks into the room. We all release a sigh of relief, now that we know at least he is back with us.  

I must have stood without noticing, because me, Yoongi, and Jin have all walked over to where Namjoon, and now Hope are standing. He gives us all a weak smile. "He's going to be alright." It should make me feel better, but I have stood here before with him telling me that someone was going to be okay. "It seems that he passed out from, exhaustion and malnutrition. We have had a lot going on recently." he pulls us each into a hug before he continues. "They are moving him into normal rooms, he is in an induced coma, just so that they can get him the nutrition that he needs, we can see him right now." The relief that I had for a moment vanishes with the idea of another coma. 

We start our walk to Jimin's room when we hear Namjoon's name being called. We all turn to see our manager who clearly needs a word with him. "I'll meet you guys there, There are few thing I need to deal with." We nod our heads, not wanting to have to think about what he has to deal with. Yoongi, Jin and Hobi continue walking, but I need a moment with Joon I race after him, grabbing his arm, and he turns to me. I see the exhaustion and sadness that is flooding through him. "Sorry Joon, it's just." I can tell that at this moment the last thing that he needs is me crying to them. "It's okay Kookie, I know a lot is going on, but I need to take care of this. I promise, a-after I deal with." he looks back to our manager waiting for him, and then turns his attention back to me. "We can talk, after I....." I nod my head I know that its going to take some time before he can say it out loud. I nod my head, and before he can leave to take care of Tae, I grab his arm and pull him into a hug. He lets his head fall into the crook of my neck and I feel a few tears leave his eyes, with one last squeeze he releases me. 

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He looks like he does when he sleeps. He definitely has less  machines connected to him then Tae does... did, my heart squeezes. Jin lies next to Jimin on the bed scrolling through tweeter. "look how much your loved Jiminie, not a single one is not about you." 

"That one isn't" Yoongi says laying on the other side of him. JIn reaches over Jiming to push him slightly. "Why would you tell him that!" JIn practically screams. 

"Because it's the truth." Yoongi says unfazed. I continue to draw my fingers through Hobi's hair as he sleeps soundly in my lap.

"His eyes are closed, as far as he knows if I tell him every post is about him, its the truth." Yoongi laughs, "He does not need fake love" Suddenly Hobi starts to hum the rhythm to Fake Love. " hey!" I say, nudging him with my knee, "I thought you were asleep."

"Exactly, because if you thought differently you would stop playing with my hair." The boys all laugh, for a moment, before silence hits us all at once, and we remember that, today is no day for laughing. 

The silence is so strong. Without telling the boys anything I stand. I need to get out of this room, before I breakdown and make there lives harder. I close the door behind me. and run to the elevator and press the down button. I watch as the number changes, and it finally stops opening. Namjoon stands there and I can't hold it back anymore I fall to my knees, I feel Joon surround me. He presses me into his neck. I should be the one comforting me, he has been comforting me to much lately. "Kook is everything okay? what happened?" I look into his worried eyes. "Is Jimin okay?" he asks a fear running through his voice. I nod my head I can't cause him any extra worry, and I can see the relief roll off him. "Then whats wrong Kook?"

I start to break all over again. "Everything.... everything is wrong....and" I take a deep breath. "Everything is wrong and it's because of me Joon. I'm the Problem." My breathing is frantic. "I told Jimin I was leaving the group, during the concert, and then, then." I see the mix of anger, and confusion in his eyes I hadn't told him about me leaving yet. " Go on Kook." 

"I told him about Tae, how its my fault." anger is released from his gaze. "Kook..." I interrupt him again. "Don't tell me that it isn't again, it is, and so Is what happened to Jimin." My heart breaks, why do I keep hurting everyone I love. I look into Joon's loving eyes, and I wish I could erase it, I don't deserve it. "Tae's dead Joon, and It is my fault." I'm weak so I let myself fall into him again. "Kook." I don't answer him, I can't yet. "Kook." he says again jostling me off of him. I look into his eyes, that carry a light in them I haven't seen in awhile. "Kook," this he says with a smile, "Tae's awake."

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A/N

Thanks so much for everyone who is reading this I am so grateful to not have only gotten to 1,000 reads, but over 3,000 it really means the world to me! I hope that this chapter doesn't disappoint