Head over Heels 3| j.b

never in a million years.

Derek and I sat on the steps of his grandparents house watching the sunset as the kids played in the yard with Sunflower.

"Issac is looking more and more like Justin everyday. Does it make you sad when you look at him?" He asks.

"Of course, but, I don't want to cry in front of the kids. I can't tell Audrey about Justin. She thinks that he's sleeping and he will come back, I think she knows what death is...she watches a lot of videos on Youtube. I was wondering if you could tell her? When the time is right, of course. I don't want to lie to her, her whole life."

"Yeah, I'll tell her. I know she's not used to him being gone, neither is Issac."

"I miss him so much."

"Me too. He gave the worst advice sometimes." He says, I giggled cleaning my face. "He was such an asshole. At least he owned up to it.  How is his parents?"

"Well, his mom is traveling. His dad..not doing so good. They didn't get along. My dad and Kristie are still shook, they loved Justin. He put his reputation on the line for me after everything that went on with my ex. But I am happy to say that I did the same. And he would be so damn proud of me."

"He would. You did the right thing, but your reputation isn't really ruined because of that. You're still a hero in my eyes, including everyone you've helped. You got hundreds of people off the streets, gave them jobs, a place to live, access to education, health care. It's amazing what one person can do. I may even consider going back to college."

"You should, tomorrow isn't promised. Will you be going back to get your masters degree in biology?"

"Yeah, I wanted to go back to the Army but, I rather enjoy being home. I stopped taking my meds and I'm sleeping fine. I feel like I'm back to normal."

"You were never normal. I don't know who you were before you joined the Army, but I'm happy that I did get the chance to meet you. I blame Kathy. I blame her for a lot of things. I don't know where I would be if she didn't introduce us. I wouldn't have started that foundation. But I'm glad I did. I made a name for myself, I'm happy about that. Maybe I should move on, I don't want anyone to think that I didn't love him because I want to move on with my life, I can't be sad forever, he wouldn't want me to do that."

"You do whatever makes you happy. Screw what everyone says or thinks, everyone has an opinion about something. It's best to keep your personal situations private. Don't mix it up with business. I'm gonna take a walk, wanna come?"

"Sure. I think a walk sounds lovely." I said getting up. We started walking down the rocky dirt road, I really liked Derek. But I still felt guilty to move on especially since I'm not over Justin. You're probably wondering what all happened months ago so, apparently after I left for work; him and the kids showed up minutes later. After that...Tiffany was there. Then it finally hit me, I was feeling sick and dizzy about everything. From the things I went through with Jason, my mom passing away, Adriana, coming back from the dead, and Justin dying, I felt like passing out.

"Hey, hey, you okay? You look tired."

"I'm okay. I felt like passing out that's all. I'm good. Seriously."

"It's a lot of pressure on you, I understand. I shouldn't have pressured you to get over Justin so quickly months ago, I was stupid. I can't understand the pain you're still going through, it's not my place to tell you to get over your husband. I'm sorry."