Head over Heels 3| j.b

it's a girl.

I went back home waiting for Justin; it must've taken him a while to get rid of the paparazzi. It wasn't long until I heard him come inside.

"Are you mad at me? I got you your favorites."

"What is it? Are you bribing me with food?" I asked.

"Maybe, it's a cheeseburger with fries, and also a strawberry milkshake."

"Okay, I'm not mad anymore," I said grabbing the bag. He sits down beside me and tosses his keys on the table. "So, where were we?"

"We were interrupted by the paparazzi, and I apologize for that. It feels good to catch a break from music. I thought when everything was over it was going to be you and I in the end."

"It still is, we're just not dating anymore. It's always going to be us; we have a relationship that no one understands. Usually, when people break up, they hate each other and hate the new person they're with. Of course, I don't like Monica; I think she's a slut. And I'm sorry for talking about your wife like that but, something not right about her. And I know Derek, and I aren't together, and you hate him because of what he did to me. But, I'm happy he did it. I never would've known I could get pregnant again. I know it's a fucked up thing to say but, I'm going to give this baby everything, teach her to love herself, make sure no guy disrespects her and it's not okay to be treated like shit. Who knows I may want you to be an uncle or grandpa." I giggled.

"Grandpa Justin." He laughs.

"No, I'm just kidding. You could be her godparent along with Kathy. She loves the idea. I don't want to fool myself thinking she'll make it out alive. What if I don't make it out alive?"

"Are you kidding me? You will. Don't think like that; you're both going to make it out alive. I know it's scary but, you have to be strong. You will be an amazing mother, Adrian. I believe you'll be the best mom that he or she could ever ask for. I hope it's a girl too. We'll get through it, together." He said kissing my hand.

"I still love you, superstar," I said, he smiles and kisses my cheek. I smiled too snuggling up to him. "Remember when you told me to never leave you, I feel shitty doing that to you."

"I can't force you to stay with me. I'm just happy that we don't hate each other. What about college? Aren't you going to finish?"

"Of course, I'm just taking courses that I can take online. I still have my apartment just in case I want to go away for a while, but everything's fine. Don't think I'm giving up because I'm pregnant. After I found out I was, I switched my classes to online, so I can come back home. I was going to stay in New York and not tell anyone except Derek. But I want you in the baby's life; you deserve to be angry at me."

"I'm not angry at you; I'm really happy for you. This is what you wanted right?"

"Yeah. It feels good to be fat again; I didn't miss the morning sickness though. I know you tried your best to give me a baby, thank you. I fucked up when I got an abortion."

"You did the right thing; it takes time to get pregnant again after an abortion, maybe that's what happened."

"Yeah. I'm sure that's probably why also. You love her huh? You can tell me the truth; I won't judge. Do you love her enough to be married to her?"