Tattoo 2 (A Neighbourhood fanfic)

Chapter 11: Battle Scars.

Songs for this chapter:
•Battle Scars- Guy Sebastian, Lupe Fiasco
Zoe's POV:
I remember the first time I cut.
The pain.
Then the panic of the blood.
Then the calm.
How I could control everything in that moment for once.
I wore long ass sleeves for a whole week even though back then the New York weather was unbearable. No one question it though. No one cared.
Now starring at the gun in front of me, I question it.
How different would it be killed captivated then if I've cut deeper last time.
I shudder at the thought.
I grip Dylan's hand tightly in my palm. The only safety I could be certain of. I can see how badly my hand is shaking compare to his. He was pretty much the only thing keeping me from running and being shot.
I hide behind Dylan as I hear guns clicking. My heart is beating off my chest, ringing in my ears.
Next thing I know, I feel the weight pull me down, and my vision turn black.
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*Flashback*
"You know what's funny?" Jesse asked looking at me while writing in his journal. He was writing in his song journal, and I could tell he had something as he writing furiously ignoring me for a whole two complete hours.
I looked up at him shrugging my shoulders.
He got up and walked towards me. I knew why he wanted to do, because he always had the same look. The corner of his lips raised in a smirk, his eyes glistening with excitement.
I was laying down flat on the bed, as he turned me around, laying on top of me.
"Jesse," I whispered my eyes closing as his fingers traced my hips. His fingers continued going in circles until I could feel myself grasp his neck pulling him on to my lips.
It was sweet yet urgent making me weak in the knees. I could feel my breathing shorten, yet neither pulled away.
His hands raised slowly trailing up my side until he turned us around, and now I was laying on top of him. We both pulled away gasping for air, our hearts pounding out of our chest.
*End of flashback*
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
I take a deep breath, inhaling some kind of gas through my nose. I can feel my body tingling, yet I couldn't move it.
My eyes feel glue shut.

"Zoe?"

I feel my breathing stop.
It couldn't be.
He can't be here.
Yet he is.
Jesse?
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{Authors Note:
Guys I'm soooo sorry I haven't updated. I've had the biggest writers block I've ever had in my life and you can't believe how horrid I've been and felt. But I'm back and ready for action :) hopefully I've picked up in a good place so yeah :) I've missed you guys so bad ❤️
~hxzlou