Sunshiny Things (Original)

Ch. 15 Where's My Jacket?

Cole

I can't believe this. Dace and freya. Freya and Dace. The two people I despise in this world, together right now. They're probably plotting against me at this very moment. Trying to make a shitty joke out of everything Freya has figured out. My poetry, my drunken incident at her place, hell even today. Which was defiantly a mistake by the way. I now know that. I should have never let even a little bit of my guard down and especially around her. I meant what I said as I stormed off. I should have left her in the rain.

I walk into my bedroom and slam my door shut, causing some of the papers on the wall to shake. I instantly rush over to my desk drawer and rummage for my hidden flask of vodka. I just need to keep my mind off everything thats happening right now. And all the mistakes I've made today. Grabbing the silver flask, to my luck I feel the swishing of the liquid indicating that there's still a little bit of poison left inside it. Without hesitating, I un screw the lid and down the entire remains in an instant. But it's not enough. I need more. I go over to my bookshelf and scan through the different verities of books that are displayed. Mostly classics like Pride And Prejudice, To Kill A Mocking Bird, Jane Eyre, The Great Gatsby. But then my eyes land on one book in particular. I pick up the book from off the shelf and run my fingertips over the worn cover. Wuthering Heights. I must have read this book at least a thousand times already. And you can defiantly tell by all the highlighted sections and different types of stains spread out along the pages. The words are beautiful. Even the most dreadful and haunting ones. But that's what makes the literature so outstanding.

I walk over to the side of my bed and scrunch up on the floor next to it. The edge of my finger tickles along the ends of the pages as I slowly flip through them. That is until my thumb stops and I land on one page. I open up to that page entirely and the seams of the book crack little in the process due to how old it is. This is one of my most read pages. Be with me always - take any form - drive me mad! Only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! I cannot live without my soul. The quote and the words themselves are beautiful, captivating even. But at the same time... they still anger me. The beauty and truthfulness of them anger me. It makes me need another distraction. A more dangerous one. I quickly stand up and throw the now empty flask on my neatly made bed, before rushing over to my door to go scavenging in the kitchen for more alcohol. I know my dad has a stash that he likes to think is secret. Even though our entire family knows about it. It's one of the many reasons why my mom loathes him.

I quickly reach for my knob to turn it and open the door, but my hand gets stopped by it swinging open from the other side before I can do so. My dad jumps and curses when his body almost comes in complete contact with mine as he opens the door fully.

"Good, you're here," my dad snaps once he composes himself again. "Cam is going to be arriving late tomorrow night so make sure you're here and not out doing whatever the hell it is you're usually doing around this time. God knows I don't have the energy to put up with Cam's attitude alone." My fist instantly clinch at his snarky comments. What an asshole. And suddenly I don't see my dad standing in front of me anymore. Just an old cracked punching bag.

"Noted," I effortlessly respond. I brush past him without wanting to say another word to him, shoving his shoulder a tad in the process.

"I would also like if you would take a shower before that time as well. You smell like moldy wet grass." I flip my dad off behind my back in response to his sleazy remark. Which is actually kind of true. I did need to wash the dread and misery off my body. But right now, in this moment all I cared about was getting wasted. And maybe getting my favorite jacket back as well.

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Freya

Becca's not home by the time I arrive back from my weird little outing with Dace. She's probably off at another random party at the junkyard or something. Or maybe she's with Kyle. But I really don't want to picture that image again.