never the same

chapter 10 edited

Last week me and Deveana was out just doing all the things girls do when i emptied my stomach content in the toilet for the hundredth time that week.

Lucifer been trying to make me go to the doctors but i hate being fussed over, Deveana decided we should call it safe and do a pregnancy test, well we did 4 and each one came back the same.

Know im led in bed looking up at the ceiling deciding when how or where im going to tell Lucifer, i mean yes we spoke about having kids but we didnt speak about how soon and its pretty fucking soon.

Taking a deep breath to calm my self down what do i do, im keeping the baby with or without Lucifer but i just wish the baby would have a father an im scared that the baby will grow up without a father figure. 

Deciding its time to get up and face the shitty day i have a head off me, i roll off my bed till my feet touch the cold floor, still in my shorts and Lucifer tops i make my way down stairs to the kitchen where Sin has his arms around Deveanas belly Jordan eating his cereal and Lucifer cooking, sitting down next to Jordan who smiles at me with the spoon in his mouth i smile back looking a head i see Deveana give me a sportive smile, taking a deep breath again when the whiff off egg hit my nose making my belly turn , jumping up i run to the bath room throwing up everything i ate last night , Deveana comes in 
" have you told him"
shaking my head while swilling the mouth wash then spitting 
" im scared "
she walks over to me hugging me 
" you have to tell him"
nodding i take yet another deep breath and make my way down starirs 

Putting my hand on the door getting ready to tgo in and let out my secrute when i heard Sin and Lucifer talking 
" bro have you not thought about Iny being pregnant "
putting my ear to the door 
" nahhh bro she wont be"
swallowing my nerves
"bro she might be, the throwing up the mood changes "
i was about to walk in but the next thing that came out off his mouth made me stop in my tacks 
" im not ready to have kids, yes i like the idea off having kids and yes Iny would be the perfect mum but i dont think ill ever be ready to have kids" hearing a smacki know that Sin just smacked him
" what the fuck dude you told her you would love to have kids with her and you was lying, she is your future wife and you started off with lies , and i hope for your case she never find out " having enough off this i walk in. 

Walking over to Jordan i kiss his head 
" can you go up stairs Deveana whats to bath you"
he nods and kisses my cheek making it heard for me to keep my tears in, i look up to see Sin an Lucifer who are just looking at me, a tear slide down my face before i could stop it 
" baby"
i hold my hand up to stop him 
" dont just dont Lucifer , i love you with my whole heart i would happly give my self up to save you, that day when you said you would love to have kids with me you lied"
looking up at him with tears down my face 
" you fucking lied to me then the same night you asked if i could marry you knowing that i wanted kids and you dont , you led me to believe something that wasnt true"
walking over to him i grab his hand putting it on my belly 
" know i now you dont want kids i will love and care for the baby more than anything in this world, i just wish you told me the truth because know we both got in to this mess and one off us are dealing with it "
moving his hand i make my way up stairs when Lucifer grabbed my hand trying to stop me 
" dont just dont Lucifer yes i love you but im not giving up on someone who didnt ask to be here "
ripping my hand away taking my ring over i put it in his hand 
" i hope one day someone will wear this and you wont think off me "
  i make my way up to my room locking the door. 

(LUCIFER P.O.V)

Turning around i see Sin who looks like he going to kill me, walking straight up to me pocking his figure in to me
"im not helping you get out off this again, im sick to fucking death of you fucking up and expecting us all to help you , you messed up this time and im not fucking helping you you lied out off everything you fucking lied to her why why the fucking hell would you do that knowing full well she struggles more than a normal person to trust anyone and when you got the trust you screwed it up well fucking done"
walking straight past me to find Deveana.