never the same

chapter 13 edited

LUCIFERS P>O>V

Still sat in the office that i havnt moved out off for the past 3 weeks i begin to think off everything that could off happened to her in the weeks she has been gone, Magic wont stop crying Hunter is more aggressive compared to normal, Xander and Max have gotten everyone they know on the case, Sin and Ace are both taking car off the gang while i try and find Infinity. resting my head back on the chair the office door comes bursting open with jack our hacker and Mark from Xanders gang
" Lucifer i think you need to see this" jumping out off the chair i flew to Jack and Mark grabbing the piece off paper that could potentially tell me where my wife and child is and who toke them.

I look at the image on the paper but it isnt clear enough, there car they was driving and stupidly they are driving my Infinitys car around like no one would tell the tits
" how long ago was this image" i look up to Jack when Mark speaks up
"sir its from yesterday, who ever was driving the car went to get food and general stuff nothing suspension" nodding i keep my eyes on the paper trying to figure out who might be behind the wheel
" have you got any more " looking at Mark who shakes his head
"im sorry sir no soon as i found this i wanted to show you but we can carry on looking" nodding i pass them the paper
" keep looking and try and enhance the picture so we can see his face or features" they both nod and soon leave the office.

Sitting back down, logging into my computer i look at my home screen which is a picture off me and Infinity smiling at each other looking as happy as ever before i fucked up before i lied to her before she was taken from me. feeling my eyes water i look up when my office door comes open again
" Lucifer" looking to see Jordan
"whats up bud " he comes walking over with his head down until he is in front off me, looking up he has glossy red eyes
" are we going to find Infinity " looking at him i swallow the lump forming int the back off my throat
" yes we are and when we bring her home the first person she will want to see is you" smiling a little
" can we go for ice cream" nodding i lead him out off the office.

Walking down stairs behind Jordan i see everyone in the kitchen gathered around, grabbing my keys
" me and Jordan are going for ice cream wont be long" they all nod saying bye to use, shutting the door we make our way to the car jumping in i start the car up
" Lucifer can we put on one off Infintys song" smiling i pass him my phone
" here go through al off them " he starts to scroll down
" yeh wizz you have a lot" laughing i shrug while reversing the car
" what can i say i love her voice" he starts to scroll through the songs list when he stops for a while
" Lucifer why is there one named after you" glancing a him he shows me the phone i shrug
" i dont know havnt heard that one put it on" he nods pressing play on the phone. (Alessia cara out off love)

"I won't tell you I'm lonely

'Cause it may be selfish
I won't ask you to hold me
'Cause that won't mend what's helpless

There's not a thing I could say
Not a song I could sing
For your mind to change
Nothing can fill up the space
Won't ask you to stay
But let me ask you one thing

Oh, when did you fall out of love, out of love?
Oh, when did you fall out of love with me?

I can't float in an ocean
That's already been drained
I won't cry at your feet now
I know my tears will fall in vain

There's not a thing I could say
Not a song I could sing
For your mind to change
Nothing can fill up the space
Won't ask you to stay
But let me ask you one thing

Oh, when did you fall out of love, out of love?
Oh, when did you fall out of love with me?

No use wondering
Why your changing heart has wandered
So I'll ask you this question
'Cause it might help me sleep longer

Oh, when did you fall out of love, out of love?
Oh, when did you run out of love for me?

Out of love (Out of love)
Out of love (Out of love)
Out of love with me"

I didnt realise how bad i actually hurt her until i heard hat song, after everything i have put her through for ever putting her down lying to her making her feel worth less than what she actually is, shaking my head i pull up to the ice cream shop and Jordan hops out without saying anything. I have fucked up big time this time, How the fuck can i fix this know.

(Infintiy P.O.V)

My hope for Lucifer to come save me and the baby from this hell is slowly fading along with my self, maybe i shouldnt be a mum, i cant do anything right in life, i cant bring a baby into this world without safety, i cant ensure that the baby is going to live a safe life especially with the job i do well the job i did because god knows im never going to get out off here.

I cant even fight my way out off her because i cant see who comes in where they stand all i can do is listen to there voice and guess where in the room they are standing, i never know what im eating or drinking because i cant see anything its like im blind but can see at the same time. like everything is pitch black i cant see fuck all in this room as if i am blind but i know soon as i step foot out off here ill be able to see everything might be a bit blurry but i will be able to see for the first time in god knows when. jsut then the door opens an someone walks in who i have no fucking clue is
" hows the dark" i shrug
" ehh at least i cant see your ugly face " they let out a booming laugh
" how do you know im ugly when you cant even see me" i stand up as if i can
" because all i have to do is listen to your voice and i want to vomit, you actually remind me off a creep i know " finely i figured where i recognised that voice from and why every time the spoke i got a un easy shiver down my neck
" oh really who do i remind you off" smiling i shake my head
" for me to know and you to never find out mister" he laughs again, hearing shoes come closer i walk back
" get any closer i will start to swing and im sure you know thats not a good idea" with that being said he halts in his steps
" im guessing no one coming to get you, that how un loved you are, you go missing and he people you gave the world just toke it and gave you nothing in return thats why you dont trust no one, they always leave in the end"dammmmm that was deep
" im guessing you had parent issues, daddy left you and mummy on your own and mummy was a drugy while you was left to rot in the darkness with one besides your self" hearing a growl i new i hit a nerve
" dont come at me with bullshit when your describing your self hun, next time you want to hurt me youll have to do better because believe it or not nothing in the life or world can hurt me anymore because not matter what im alway going to be emotionless and numb so try again in a week " turning around with a tier rolling down my cheak i hear the door close that when i brake down quietly crying with my hand over my mouth, no one to re-ensure me that i am loved and people are coming for me i lie down with my hand on my belly wishing that i could give the baby the world but knowing i cant which makes me cry even more.