never the same

chapter 19

LUCIFER P.O.V 

I dont know how long i have sat here staring at Infinity my love my life my everything, keeping my hand on her growing belly when the door creek open revelling Sin an the other, they smiling at me i smile back 
" come in " 
they all fall into the room around Infinity all looking at her with tears in there eyes, Hunter grabs her other hand tear streaming down his face 
" im so sorry for all the hurt i put you through i disregarded your feeling an became self with my own, i need you the past few years, its been hell not seeing you please dont give up on your self not now Infinity you have your life together you've welcomed people into your life who would die for you, you cant leave us you cant" 
his head now on her hand an Luke hand on his shoulder looking down from the emotions that are suffocating everyone in the room, everyone is just stood crying for the person who would wake up an call us all dicks for crying. 

  Looking over at Magic i motion with my head that she can take my seat i slowly let go off her hand making my way to stand next to Sin, when Infinity bust out scream making everyone in the room panic, i go running over to her putting my hands on her face 
" im here baby im not leaving im here  "
kissing her for-head she goes quiet an everyone looks at me especially Sin Ace Hunter an Luke with there arms crossed giving me a look to say explain 
" i thought she died but then i herd her scream from the end off the corridor so i ran as fast as i can, i came in to see her screaming an cry so just like anyone would i grabbed her hand an started talking to her she soon calmed down, thats when the doctor said she must have a strong emotional connection to me its like her head is keeping her trapped in all the trauma off her child hood to know, the doctor said she must need me to hold her to make her feel safe" 
shrugging i look down feeling guilty i didnt see Xander stood behind Sin when his voice came bouncing off every wall in side the hospital 

" your telling me after everything all the hurt she still wants you, you emotionally abused her to the point she was talking about suicide, i had her in my arms braking down because you sorry little ass walked away from her from the baby you helped create , your telling me your ready to be a dad to be there when she is struggling to be there when the baby needs feeding changing to pick him or she up if she falls to be there kiss away there boo boos, to sit there while they cry over a heart break because no matter how hard you try an protect them it inevitable, you ready for that" 

Know in front off my face seething with anger shaking trying his hardest not to hurt me because when Infinity wakes up she would kill him, i straighten my back out an look into his scary ass eyes so he knows im ready.

" yes im read yes i ran yes i hurt her yes im the reason why she is led in that bed fighting for hers an the babys life, but i cant live without them i cant, im ready for the fights the argument the n the good happy times full of laughter, im ready to watch our baby grow up with Inifinty in my arms wishing that we could go back in time to when we first had the child so we can do all this all again, im ready to kill anyone who hurts our child im ready to fight till my last breath to show them both i love them more than life an that i will forever protect them, im ready " 

Pushing his hand towards me i take a deep breath
" hurt him an we all know shes going to kill you" 
Xander look towards a smart mouth Hunter whos lip is tilted up on one side showing hes trying his hardest not to laugh, taking his hand i look at him an the rest off them 

" im sorry i really am but please give me a chance to show use im ready an if i ever fuck up again ill give you the gun to kill me with i promise just give me a chance" 
they all look at each other an shrugg nodding when Ace steps forward 
" ill torcher you before you feel any guilt enter your body an thats a promise"  
looking at a laughing Sin i let my mouth fall open 
" your suppose to be on my side twat" 
Ace shrugs with a smile 
" yeh but i love Inifinty more " 
everyone starts to laugh.