never the same

chapter 17

Lucifers P.O.V 

Turning my phone of im sat behind the wheel not knowing where to go who to go to, i scream i punch the wheel letting out all my anger, if i just could keep my anger in check my baby an wife wouldnt be fighting for there life, they would be in my arms safe i would be holding Infintys tiny bump while she leans on me smiling up at me with nothing but love an care in her eyes while i look at her wondering what i did right in my life to deserve her, her love , her care everything about her makes you smile.

The first time i met her granted i never spoke to her but she was feisty she put Sin in his place without even thinking about who we was, i just sat there dying to go to her trapping her against her door cagiing her in while i stare at her deep brown eyes trying to figure out her before i claim her sofft plump lips with mine claiming her as mine, we made eye contact a few times an there i new i needed to know why behind her beautiful deep brown eye there was hurt scares that only her knows about, i needed to get to know the girl who captured my attention with just a look. 

The day when Magic called us saying she was in trouble i could contain my feelings i needed her to be okey, i new her the most off a day to which she scared the living shit out off everyone but me because i saw through her walls i saw the real her the girl who was constantly hurt hiding from her past, the broken little girl she thought she had protected from anyone seeing. When we arrived at her house we herd her the real her the girl who no one saw an my heart hurt from who much pain she has endured in her short life, Magic couldn't even talk she was scared i new this was the first time she has seen Infinity so weak an broken. 

She did everything for us an the gang she made sure we was all safe an came home to our families when we went on dangerous missions, she treated the gang as her family like we was the only people she could trust an rely on, she had a heart everyone wanted she was the girl everyone wanted to wifie up. 

Not realising that i was to far inside my head recording the memories off her when i see the house iv been hiding from infront off me, the house that taught me to be a man the house iv been dreading to come back to with the disappointment off everyone around me, parking in the drive way leaving my tears to fall down my face giving up whiping them away for the simple reason they dont stop falling an iv given up. 

Standing on the porch i take a deep breath an knock on waiting for what seems like hours until the door opens revelling the person i needed right now besides Infinity the only person who could give me advice on what to do next the only person who was there for me during my child hood who wasnt even remotely related to me, she looks at me like a truck has just demolished her house but then she sees my face my tears the broken me. 

"ohh baby come here what happened" 
walking into her arms braking down falling to my knee not being able to hold my self up anymore tierd from the pain a n guilt everything
" terry get out here n help me" 
terry comes running out seeing me on the floor he grabs a hold off me on the floor just holding me while i rock back an forth screaming once again crying for everyone iv hurt in the past 2 years crying for everyone who always stood by me even when i gave them 1000 reason not to crying for every ounce off pain i caused my baby an her mother. 

After a while i look up to two very worried faces an try my hardest to smile, Terry helps me up to wards there cream coloured sofa that has a pattern of flowers on, i sit while Merry just hold me with my arms around her Terry goes to the kitchen to get some water for my now very dry throat, grabbing the cold glass i take a long drink then putting on the table look towards Terry an Merry
" whats happened Lucifer "
Merry takes my hands in her while i just look down with guilt 

Telling them everything from the start to now i havnt once looked up not being able to bear there disappointed eyes on me, they brought me up better but i was scared i didnt want to harm her in anyway which is funny because iv hurt her in the worse way possible. 
" why didnt you just wait for her to talk to you you always let your anger blind you, Lucifer you arnt them you never will be they were not human you are my boy" 
looking up at Terry i see nothing but worry an pitty, running my hands over my face 
" i know but i got scared so scared but when she was taken i fell apart i new i could've prevented that i could still have her in my arms if she even forgave me that is" 
looking to Marry 
" what do i do i cant live without her an my child " 
she smiles putting her hands on my cheek 
" son sorry is easy to say its taking responablility for you actions an mistake, go show her that your there to take responsability for what you helped create an for what mistakes you have done" 
nodding i smile at her hugging her for everything she has taught me, i make my way back to my car waving an telling them ill come back with my child an the women i love. 

Knowing that im gonna try my dam hardest to get them back i drive towards the place i left my love, going to check the time i see that i forgot to turn my phone back on sighing i press the botten an my screen lights up making sounds after sounds i glace down seeing its miss call after miss call from Sin, pulling the car over i pick the phone up hearing everything he said my heart stops the car going past me slow down the world stops moving.

Opening my car door i try to get air but no matter how hard i try its like my lungs have stopped work like i dont know how to breath, stand on the edge off the motorway barrier that protects us from the fall to death i look down not feeling anything at all i ring Sin knowing he will answer. 
"Lucifer where are you im sorry i didnt know what to do you left im sorry please tell me where you are" 
looking down to the calm water underneath me wishing my life was as calm as the water i beging to laugh 
" im going to lose them Sin i cant lose them i cant" 
hearing Sin jumping up ready to come get me 
" where are you ill come to you we can talk " 
shrugging asif he could see me 
" i dont know i went to go see Marry an Terry, i cant live without them Sin" 
hes know in his car making his way to me 
" Lucifer mate im coming go back to your car an dont get out please " 
hanging up i throw my phone into the calm water wishing that i was the phone falling to calmness. 

SIN P.O.V    

Jumping out off bed i make my way to him knowing how much this is going to be hurtiing him when i see Ace infront off me 
" im coming " 
shaking my head 
" no just stay here " 
he looks at me like hes going to kill me scaring me a little not going to lie 
" hes my brother too an right now use three need each other" 
nodding at him we get in car making our way to him. hang in there bud !

Going passed the speed limit i push my car to its speed limit weaving in an out off cars beeping at any car in my way not having the time or the energy to say sorry, Lucifer hasnt been this broke for years the last time we saw him like this he get arrested for nearly killing a poor man who tried seeing if he was okey. Lucifer an Infinty are scary people!

watching Hunters name pop up on my phone i answer sliding across 
" WHERE ARE YOU AN ACE INFINTY HAS HAD A EPISIOD THE HOSPITAL RANG ME YOU NEEDTO COME BACK MAN " 
"whats happened is she okey"
panic start to set in 
" i dont know the doctor sounded scare he said to get there as quick as possable she is screeming your name an Lucifers i dont know man"
hitting my wheel i cursing i hear the panic in his voice 
"fuck im going to get Lucifer then ill come as fast as i can" 
hanging up throwing my phone to the back i put my foot down on the gas pedal trying to be as fast as i can knowing Infinity needs us
" whats happened " 
side eyeing Ace i sigh 
" Infinity has had a episode i dont know whats happened all i know is we need to be fast" 

Turning up to a junction i see his car then him holding onto the barrier looking down, swinging my car into park climbing out i run to him with Ace, we both grab him holding him together ooon our arms while he doesnt say anything i dont even know if he is breaths. stepping back 
" we needed to get to the hospital Infinity something happened an shes calling our names screeming come on mine they need you" 
he looks at me with panic an fear 
" ill take yah car Sin will take you lets go guys our life needs us" 
we all nod giving each other fist bumps ready to get our Infinity back we all speed to the hospital. 

Lucifer is the first out the car an gone the next not giving me chance to turn my engine off or even park up, me an Ace make our way in to everyone there at the front desk screaming and shouting at the receptionist, im stood next to Lucifer who is banging his hands on the desk, as im about to try an calm them all down the doctor comes out to us, every single one off us shut up looking at him with hope in our eyes that the worst has happened and that she is still with us 
" i need Sin an Lucifer " 
we both step forward with a nod at the doctor he start to walk to the room that i got told the worse news off my life. 

We all sit down with anticipation Lucifer look like hes about to but into flames an the doctor looks scared for his life, clearing his throat 
" we dont know what happened she just started screaming an crying we tried to put her back to sleep but nothing worked, its like she is alive but stuck in her head" 
he looks down sighing 
" her heart stopped an we made sure the baby was okey first that is what we agreed on" 
i stop breathing, shes dead Infinity is dead........