My Fresh Air ~ Jeff Wittek

Chapter 10

* Jeff' POV *

I was on my bed chilling with Nerf when  I got a notification from Aspyn, " Hey! It's Aspyn. Just wanted to let you know that I can make it tomorrow. What time do we start? "

" Awesome, we start at 6 in the morning. You can ride with me so that I can drive to the trail I go to, " I texted back.

" Great! When I knock on your door, that's when you'll know that I'm ready. See you tomorrow!" 

" See you in the morning!" I typed. I laid down on my bed and just stared at the ceiling fan.

 I kind of got to see how she was personally.  I actually dig her and I think she's pretty cool! She invited me and the guys to hang out to watch a movie at her place. We all got to know her pretty well. 

From what I know, she's from New York City and she's an only child. She's 28, which is only a year younger than me. She came here to have a fresh start and to start her singing career. She also makes Youtube videos of her singing, vlogging, and more. She's really adventurous and active.  She's been in a relationship before but they never worked out. But she is single now which is a plus. 

I like that I know that she has been in a relationship before because she is going to already know what she wants and she's more serious about a relationship. When I mean serious, I mean that as her not messing around with other people or not playing any games when it comes to a relationship. She knows that she wants to get married and have to have a kid or two later in life. I like that she knows her future. 

 I dated Cierra and she was younger than me so I don't think she knew what she wanted at that time. I think she still wanted to remain as a couple but not really wanting to settle down with a family. I understood that considering we were in our early 20s. I understand that your 20s are the most fun and memorable years that you're going to want to cherish. But I knew I wanted to start a family around my late 20s and mid-30s. 

I am 6 years older than her and I wanted her to consider if she wanted to get married and have a family. She told me she wasn't ready for it because she still wanted to be able to live her life and not worry about any of that. Her being married and having kids didn't really come up to her mind.

 That was the main reason why we broke up. Nobody knows this of course except my close friends. Even though we were public about our relationship, we wanted to keep this detail to ourselves. So we broke it off and I wasn't really trying to look for a relationship after that because I wanted my next girlfriend to maybe become my wife and the mother to my kid(s). 

For example, Cierra would see kids crying and she would joke around that she was glad that she didn't have to deal with any of that. She didn't have to worry about the husband constantly wondering where she was or the husband leaving with the baby. She would also say that she wouldn't have to worry about c-sections or remembering to breastfeed the baby and change the diaper. I would be deeply hurt but I never showed it to her. I think that I loved her too much so I just let it slide.

 Sometimes, I would be very annoyed and had an attitude with her. She would always ask me what's wrong but I told her that it was nothing because I knew she wouldn't care about what I had to say about settling down. I told her before that I wanted her to keep the idea of me wanting to settle down and have a family in mind, but I don't think she took me too seriously.  So I don't want this to be a problem again if I were to date again. 

I sigh at the memory of Cierra and I's last fight. I run my hands through my hair and closed my eyes. I'll always care for Cierra because she was the woman I cherished for such a long time. She's always gonna be a part of me since she was a part of my life for about 3 years.

 I don't want to be with someone who thinks having kids and being married will stop your fun and end your life. I want to be able to be with someone who believes that the fun doesn't stop. You can have fun, it would just be with more people and the people you love. 

I can tell that Aspyn knows what she wants though and she isn't going to settle for anything less. I like that about her. If we do become something more, I wish that everything will be alright. A relationship is going to be a rollercoaster sometimes, but that's why you work through it together by listening and having that constant communication. 

 I'm glad that I get to have one-on-one time with Aspyn so that I can get to know her more without other people chiming in or listening to the conversation. She doesn't seem like she changes how she is whenever she's by a lot of people. I guess I'll see how she acts by me tomorrow.  

I thought it was cool that she wasn't pissed that Natalie pulled down her bathing suit. I helped her out by at least turning around so that she could pull it back up. I thought most girls would be upset that their friend embarrassed them in front of a whole bunch of guys, but she brushed it off like it was nothing. She didn't overthink it or sneakily tried to hide the fact that she was actually mad and yell at Natalie for doing that. She's chill. I called her babe a couple of times but it just slipped out of my mouth. I don't plan to stop calling her that though. 

I'm lowkey excited for tomorrow. I set my alarm for 5:15 am so that I could have breakfast and make my protein shake. I took off my shirt, turned off the lights, and laid in bed while I scroll through Twitter and Instagram for a while before I fell asleep. 

-- happy 10 chapters! 

love, Leilani --