Too Much To Handle Alone

Sixteen

🍁Monday, October 26th🍁
"One Day, In Retrospect, The Years Of Struggle Will Strike You As The Most Beautiful."
~ Sigmund Freud
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Kennedy's Pov
I jolted awake to the sound of my alarm. It's not like I mind. I wasn't sleeping very well anyway. Nightmares and paranoia.

I'd say I'm surprised Jason isn't still here but I'm not. I heard him leave around midnight when he thought I was asleep. I don't blame him. I was only pretending to be asleep so he wouldn't stay all night.

I heard a lot from him last night honestly. He was talking to himself quite a bit. He was saying things like:

"I gotta stay away from her."

"I can't. It's physically impossible."

"What am I? Crazy? What the hell?"

"I just need to pay off these last guys and we'll be good."

"I should stop by McDonald's on the way home."

"Maybe finding a third job will speed up the process."

I won't tell him I heard what he said because I know he thought I couldn't hear and I'll let him keep his privacy. But it pains me to know how much he's going through. He's pretty much alone through it all. He only has Danny and as much as I love Danny, he doesn't do crap to help.

With a sigh, I slid out of bed and walked to my bathroom to take a shower. It was a quick shower though. I'm not every comfortable in the bathroom after last night. Albeit, it wasn't this bathroom but as of right now I officially have a phobia of bathrooms.

While I was in the shower all I could think of was that guy banging on the door. It was truly traumatic.

After my shower I got dressed in black leggings, a black tank top, and a plain gray pullover hoodie. I slipped on a pair of tan Uggs. I threw my hair into a ponytail and opted out of doing my makeup. Then I grabbed my things for school and walked downstairs.

"Diane! Dad! I'm leaving!" I yelled through the house. I don't get an answer.

"Bye!" I yell again just to be sure. They probably left. After not getting a response for the second time, I walked out and got in Bertha to go to school.

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I get to school and it's pretty obvious they're setting up for the high school football playoffs with streamers and posters. We do things a little different in this town. Even football. And everyone takes football seriously.

I walk into school casually. It doesn't look like anyone knows what happened. Unless they're finally being civilized and minding their own business. If that's the case then I'm set for a pretty good day.

"Kennedy!"

Spoke too soon.

I keep walking hoping Alyx just gives up and leaves me alone. But when in our entire lives has she ever given up? Never. Never is the answer.