Waiting To Be The One (Ashtan Fanfiction)

Chapter ten: Let go

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Chapter ten

A S H L E Y  F A R H A N A

"Good bye, Ashley. I love you okay? "

I did my best to stop myself from crying. I just can't let my tears to fall, I don't want them to know that I am weak.

Eversince I was a child, I can only count those times that I cried. Even if my brother was always bullying me, I never really cried.

When I entered Pinoy big brother and met those people whom I can consider my friends, I learned that there's no need to be afraid of crying even being weak. Crying doesn't mean you're weak, sometimes, we just really need to cry in order for us to let our hearts free.

Being strong for a long time can also be our weakness.

But today, I just can't let Tan saw me crying while he's walking away from me. I know him very much, he'll stop walking away and will decide to be with me again evebln if it means hurting himself.

I don't want him hurting. I am just so tired of seeing him hurting because of me. I like him... very much. But, I also know that I am still in love with Lance.

I don't want to be unfair with Tan. He's a good man and I don't deserve him. He's a lot better that I am. All he ever did is to love me while all I ever did is to give him pain.

Sometimes, I want to ask him, how can he love me when he knew from the first time we met that my heart already belongs for someone else? How can he smile at me all the time when he knew from the very first that it's not his smile that my heart wants.

I immediately got my phone and call my brother to fetch me. I look at the coffee I ordered for Tan, he left it here.

I shook my head again when I felt that my tears will fall soon. He might not be the guy whom I am in love with, he is really the only guy I am comfortable with. He is only the guy who can let my tears fall.

I am also hurting but what can I do? It is my decision. It is what I want, it is what I need to do to prevent him from hurting.

T H E O D O R E  A N T O N I O

"What are you doing here? Nawawala ka ba at hindi ka sa bestfriend mo napunta? " nakakunot noong tanong sa akin ni Yton. Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin at nagtuloy tuloy na pumasok sa Mansion nila.

"What the fuck, man? Broken hearted ka ba? " tanong ulit niya pero parang wala rin akong napapansin sa paligid ko.

I just want to release all mh emotions but how? Gaya nga ng sabi ko noon, kaibigan ko si Lance, ayokong masira ang pagkakaibigan naming lahat kung magkakasiraan kaming dalawa.

"Oyy, lover boy, nandito ka pala." nilingon ko si Eros na lumabas mula sa kusina. Sinasabi ko na nga ba, wala siya sa condo unit niya.

"Mag-usap tayo." tumango siya sa akin nang mapansing seryoso ako. Hinila niya ako papasok sa mini bar ng mansion nila. Kumuha siya ng alak para ibigay sa akin pero umiling lang ako.

"Hindi sulosyon ang alak sa problema ko, Eros." inirapan niya ako tapos ay ibinalik ang alak na hawak. "Kahit broken hearted ka, goos boy ka pa rin talaga."

"Eros, I talk to Ashley today, I told her that I will let go of her"

"Ano? Akala ko ba maayos kayo niyang Ashley mo? What happened? Bakit nauwi sa ganiyan? "

"Alam niyo naman siguro na mas nauna kong nakilala si Lance at Emjay, diba? Before I met Ashley, may nabuo ng pagkakaintindihan si Lance at Ashley"

Tiningnan ko ang ekspresyon ni Eros at nagulat ako ng chill lamang itong nakatingin sa akin. Minsan talaga ay misteryoso rin itong taong 'to.

Nagsalita akong muli.

"When I met Ash, everything about them, Ashley and Lance, was a chaos. Nagkita kasing muli si Lance at Angela na matagal ng magkakilala ang to make the story short, Lance fall for Angela kaya naiwan si Ashley."

Hindi ko na natapos ang kwento ko nang magsalita si Eros.

"Tapos naging rebound ka at ngayon ay bumalik ang gagong Lance na 'yun para kay Ashley kaya ikaw ang nagpaparaya. What the fuck, man? Now I wonder how can you be so good. How can you let Ashley go insted of fighting her?"

Napailing ako. There's no need to fight for her. Kasi simula pa lang naman ay si Lance na ang mahal niya. Sa loob ng sampung taon, kinaya kong magbulag-bulagan na hindi na mahal ni Ash si Lance, na soon, Ashley will fall for me.

"Do you think I can still fight when I know that Lance won already? I want them to be happy. I love Ashley and Lance is my friend. Kaya kong bitawan lahat, Eros, para sa kaligayahan nilang dalawa. Ganun sila ka-importante."

Nagsalin si Eros ng alak na nasa tabi niya at saka uminom. "Ang good boy mo kasi. 'Yan na nga ba ang sinasabi namin na 'yang kabaitan mo ang magpapahirap sayo. Ako ata itong malalasing dahil sa katangahan mo."