Music Saved us

chapter 15| welcome to anger

lana's pov

I run out of the room and decided to skip school for the rest of the week heck until I couldn't skip no more I couldn't get the image of him laughing at those words after ignoring me for days. I arrived home just as my panic attack was starting luckily my mother was dealing with a case aboard so she wouldn't be home for months I slammed my bedroom door shut behind and ran straight to my razors i couldn't breath my vision was becoming blurry as well as images of people laughing at me at him laughing at me over and over again I kept cutting till I could breath, once I stopped I looked down to see my clothes covered in blood I striped them off and got in the bath not even caring to bandage my wounds I let tears mix with the rose coloured bath water I had never been in love before and had never had a friend like him before he helped me realise my dreams my future he made me feel alive again and now I don't want to feel what he has made me feel my crying turns into sobbing as I continue to breakdown my body starts shaking from the water turning cold and how much blood I've lost i don't know how long I'm in the bath before I hear a knock at my door I ignore it just thinking I've actually gone insane numb I say to myself I just want to feel numb.

Links POV
I knock her door once again sighing I don't know why Leo couldn't sort his own mess out like a man but I wasn't going to let Lana feel like trash because of him.
(Flashback)
"Hello" I answer my phone as I clean my table and place the plates on the table for my date that I had finally scored with yuki "thank god you answered listen I'm a jerk and a dick but you've got to help Lana she- I-" he sighs the fustrastion in his voice noticeable "listen idiot why don't you just to explain to her about whatever it is your hiding" I say Lana told me why he was ignoring her and I thought it was some male pride issue "I can't listen she don't need to see me right now and I was awful to her please just go help her" I sigh placing my hand on my hip "listen you made her upset you go make her happy what's the deal" I say back "the deal is she hurts her self link and I have a bad feeling right now and even if we was on good terms she needs you not me" he says breaking down I catch his voice breaking at certain points I sigh "okay but you need to talk to her Leo this is stupid for you and her" I say

Lanas pov
I jolt up right my breathing ragged as cold ice water hits my skin soaking my hair and my clothes sticking to me I look around out of sorts and see my wrists wrapped in red towels the pressure hurting I wince at the pain looking up meeting links face that was pale yuki standing in the doorway his white shirt with red drip marks my head spins and I start sobbing uncontrollably unable to breath I feel both their eyes on me link taking me in her arms ignoring the water running down her yuki disappeared for a second before coming back handing me a paper bag "breath" he spoke his voice stern I breath into the bag calming myself.
It had been about a hour since the incident after I had stopped sobbing link helped me have a warm shower wrap me up in my dressing gown and get me into bed I was sitting up and she was sitting down next to me wrapping my wrists in tight bandages she was focusing on them yuki was in the bathroom the smell of bleach coming though the air and the sound of scrubbing filling the room "im sorry" I said in a small voice she looks up at me crying now "you don't have to say sorry just ask for help" she said wiping her tears "I understand it's hard and you feel like your alone but your not I'm here" she said grabbing my hands I started crying again "thank you" I pull her into a hug and we stay like that crying until yuki makes us jump "I'm here to" he smiles making us let out small laughs while we wiped our eyes.
"Thank you guys" I say looking at both of them "if you guys didn't find me I-" I shake my head shivering scared of thinking about a future without me in it link shakes her head her hand around mine grabbing harder "but we did and we are always here now" she said yuki coming to sit down next to me and put his hand on top of links ontop of mine I met his eyes and he nodds to his lips pressed in a tight line, the door bell rings making us all three jump then pounding at the door yuki goes to get it telling me to stay in bed I hear mumbling from downstairs and finally quick steps up the stairs link gets up crossing her arms her face hard as nails she looked pissed i just realise who it is when he swings my door open knocking it into the wall he stands there out of breath yuki behind him also out of breath I meet his eyes and see he looks terrible bags under his eyes his eyes red from tears and his usual warm chocolate eyes hold so much pain I frown seeing him hurting hurt me more then any knife could right now "Lana" he says my name his eyes travelling down to my wrists he sees the thick bandages and goes even more pale "why are you here haven't you done enough" link yells he lowers his head ashamed to look at any of us "I bought him here" yuki says in a voice so serious and loud it makes us all freeze and listen to him our eyes snapped to his surprised "I'm sick of this  we are all hurting each other and if this carries on there won't be no more obscurity and-and I need this band okay I need you guys" he finishes he shuts the door and locks it he takes the key and swallows it i widen my eyes "you idiot!" Link shouts throwing my pillows at him he sends a shy smile to link and shouts back "this key isn't coming out for at least four hours now group therapy session it is and being as I trapped us here I will go First" he sank down to the floor beneath him looking at no one as his face grew dark and he sighed. We all looked at each other confused, annoyed and mostly scared that after these four hours none of us would have any secrets left.